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Forum: The Haven Topic: 3 months after moving out my personality has changed loads |
| xzpkr_apoxia |
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Posted: 14 Sep 2024, 6:23 am
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| Things I remember about my pre-June 2024 self: - Extremely shallow and takes everything at face value. - Thinks philosophy is boring only cares about giving off a certain image and doesn't question anything. - Has meltdowns every day and is very very very histrionic. - Very honest and open about him... |
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Forum: The Haven Topic: I am severely autistic and I know it :( plz help |
| xzpkr_apoxia |
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Posted: 12 Sep 2024, 2:16 am
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Replies: 12
Views: 504
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| I'm so sorry you're dealing with this. One of the things to remember about "functional" or "severity" levels is that they're not based on how you cope and perceive things. They're based on how difficult it is for neurotypical therapists or caregivers to interact with you and how... |
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Forum: The Haven Topic: So many people just don't get physical cold LIKE HOW TF |
| xzpkr_apoxia |
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Posted: 12 Sep 2024, 1:28 am
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Replies: 0
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| I kind of felt tired all night long at one point I got so tired I tried to lie in bed closing my eyes and sleeping but I couldn't because my bedroom was too cold. Didn't want to put on extra layers either, not only was I feeling too cold to move but also it brings back memories of when I was at the ... |
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Forum: The Haven Topic: Eighteen y/o no money at my wits end HELP URGENTLY NEEDED |
| xzpkr_apoxia |
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Posted: 10 Sep 2024, 9:28 pm
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Replies: 1
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| I spent most of my teenage years cocooned away from civilization in a kids foster group home. I had an extremely sheltered adolescence subject to incessant and constant infantilization, dehumanization, humiliation, bullying, gaslighting, mind games, any form of emotional/psychological abuse fathomab... |
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Forum: The Haven Topic: I am severely autistic and I know it :( plz help |
| xzpkr_apoxia |
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Posted: 10 Sep 2024, 1:20 am
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Replies: 12
Views: 504
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| You essentially described me, minus being treated badly, the crappy environment, getting a diagnosis earlier (because financial issues), the crappy social bit (I don't mask, I get mistaken for a kid -- but far from unsafe and exploited), and the lack of hyperindependence. I have the same emotional ... |
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Forum: The Haven Topic: Personality typology - infused ramble |
| xzpkr_apoxia |
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Posted: 09 Sep 2024, 7:57 pm
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Replies: 1
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| As a disclaimer, if this even counts as a disclaimer in the first place, since age 13 (due to trauma-induced extreme identity problems) I have been extremely obsessed with personality typology systems such as MBTI / enneagram / psychosophy / big five / etc (obsessively using google to clarify the as... |
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Forum: The Haven Topic: I am severely autistic and I know it :( plz help |
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Posted: 09 Sep 2024, 7:51 pm
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Replies: 12
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| I got diagnosed at age 4. My psychologist tells me that I am "high-functioning autistic" but I don't believe him. How come I get harassed literally everywhere I go and infantilised and ridiculed and talked down to, I get unsolicited comments about how young my face looks, how my thinking h... |
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Forum: The Haven Topic: I hate how ugly dumb cringe cowardly girly my personality is |
| xzpkr_apoxia |
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Posted: 30 Aug 2024, 4:20 pm
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Replies: 1
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| I watched Requiem For A Dream. Even though I haven't seen all of it I think it is a rather interesting film. But this one character in particular (don't pay much attention to peoples' names) is an embodiment of all the qualities I hate in myself and don't want to have. She is a fat old woman that is... |
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Forum: The Haven Topic: TONIGHT WAS A BLAST, I REALLY ENJOYED MYSELF! nsfw |
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Posted: 29 Aug 2024, 10:24 pm
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Replies: 2
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| It was like 9.00pm. The members of staff on shift were the ones I hate, that weird creepy insufferable guy that always emotionally abuses me and makes me feel uncomfortable. Randomly the lights in my bedroom turned off on its own, so did the telly and the laptop. I got so angry. I raided the house f... |
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Forum: General Autism Discussion Topic: Reasons why I am way stupider than I want |
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Posted: 29 Aug 2024, 1:12 pm
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Replies: 5
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| EIGHT YEAR OLDS are harassing you? My goodness no wonder you don't want to leave the house. The hard truth is that people are bothering you because you are "presenting" differently than others and some people feel free to point it out. You can try figuring out what is triggering the atten... |
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Forum: Art, Writing, and Music Topic: Post a book you're reading |
| xzpkr_apoxia |
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Posted: 28 Aug 2024, 1:08 am
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Replies: 4,847
Views: 435,171
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| I can rarely be bothered to read books but I do like to collect books that I find interesting and cherry-pick the most interesting chapters. Ik this is psuedo-intellectual wannabe INTJ ish but Dreams by Sigmund Freud, Lovecraft short stories, Will To Power by Friedrich Nietzsche, whatever philosophy... |
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Forum: Art, Writing, and Music Topic: Song you're obsessed with |
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Posted: 28 Aug 2024, 1:02 am
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Replies: 1,701
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| October All Over by Unwound |
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Forum: Getting to know each other Topic: Introduction that I should have done earlier |
| xzpkr_apoxia |
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Posted: 28 Aug 2024, 12:46 am
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Replies: 8
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| I am new to this forum and tbh I enjoy using it, I would like to make like-minded neurodivergent friends |
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Forum: Random Discussion Topic: What are you wearing right now? |
| xzpkr_apoxia |
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Posted: 28 Aug 2024, 12:40 am
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Replies: 1,971
Views: 89,909
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| Beige cargo shorts and baby blue adidas T-shirt with white long sleeve top underneath |
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Forum: Random Discussion Topic: What time is it now, where you are? |
| xzpkr_apoxia |
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Posted: 28 Aug 2024, 12:40 am
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Replies: 17,375
Views: 417,636
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Forum: Random Discussion Topic: What are you eating?/Last thing you ate? |
| xzpkr_apoxia |
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Posted: 28 Aug 2024, 12:39 am
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Replies: 20,306
Views: 858,629
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