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Forum: General Autism Discussion Topic: Who else sucks at posing for photographs? |
| Lindowyn |
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Posted: 27 Nov 2010, 12:59 am
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Replies: 37
Views: 3,896
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I hate when someone takes photos of me. I look horrible almost all the time. sometimes my eyes look like they pop out of my head, then my nose is enormous and so on.
And if I have to smile, it looks very dumb and unnatural... |
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Forum: General Autism Discussion Topic: Does someone else have problems with ''be in touch'' ? |
| Lindowyn |
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Posted: 26 Nov 2010, 2:44 pm
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Replies: 11
Views: 970
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| Ok, there is something I just noticed this morning when an old friend called me: I never had much friends, first I had none, but later when I went to a private school I had some. We moved a lot so it was hard to find friends and I always was the freak. But then I found 4 friends at private school an... |
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Forum: Adult Autism Issues Topic: He abused me, but I don't hate him |
| Lindowyn |
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Posted: 26 Nov 2010, 2:28 pm
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Replies: 81
Views: 1,133
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| Thanks a lot that you try to understand and help, I really appreciate it. I don't know for sure, but he was kinda protective, always told me that I should tell if something bad happens to me and told me to never get in a strangers car.. But you are right, it a chapter of my past and even if I someti... |
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Forum: Adult Autism Issues Topic: He abused me, but I don't hate him |
| Lindowyn |
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Posted: 25 Nov 2010, 3:50 pm
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Replies: 81
Views: 1,133
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| I made it, because I wanted to know if someone else feel the same way. And I wanted to have your opinions on it, because I can't tell anyone in real life. As I said, I know my reaction is not normal and I wanted to try to find out why I react like this. I mean I often react weird to things but this ... |
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Forum: Adult Autism Issues Topic: He abused me, but I don't hate him |
| Lindowyn |
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Posted: 25 Nov 2010, 3:21 pm
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Replies: 81
Views: 1,133
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| It is surely not a fantasy. Just because its hard to understand for some don't mean its a lie. And I know its not normal, nothing in my life is normal, so I'm not suprised this isn't either. I really did not want to offend anybody with this, and I think there is nothing more to say about it either. ... |
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Forum: Adult Autism Issues Topic: He abused me, but I don't hate him |
| Lindowyn |
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Posted: 25 Nov 2010, 2:51 am
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Replies: 81
Views: 1,133
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| I'm very sorry for you that bad things happened to you. And belive me, except for my cause, child abuse is something very bad. I have a 3 year old cousin who has LFA and she don't talk at all, so she is a easy target. I told her more than once, that if anyone does anything to her she don't want or h... |
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Forum: Adult Autism Issues Topic: He abused me, but I don't hate him |
| Lindowyn |
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Posted: 25 Nov 2010, 1:35 am
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Replies: 81
Views: 1,133
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| I do see your point. But he could not have tracked me down. He could not contact me. When my parents divorced, my mom and me moved. First she was at home all the time and he came once to visit. After like half a year she found a job, but at the same time, the bullying in school went worse and my mom... |
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Forum: Adult Autism Issues Topic: He abused me, but I don't hate him |
| Lindowyn |
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Posted: 24 Nov 2010, 6:26 am
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Replies: 81
Views: 1,133
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| I don't think its less common today. You find stories about rape, murder and abuse almost everyday in the newspaper and that is only the causes that were reported to the police. And of course if I ever hear that he did that to another girl, then I will go to the police. Because then he lied to me an... |
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Forum: Adult Autism Issues Topic: He abused me, but I don't hate him |
| Lindowyn |
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Posted: 23 Nov 2010, 11:21 am
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Replies: 81
Views: 1,133
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I don't think I will ever meet him again, but sometimes I feel the longing to see him again.
But I will never tell the police or my parents or anyone else in my real life. I don't want him get in trouble because I'm sure he did this only to me. |
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Forum: Adult Autism Issues Topic: He abused me, but I don't hate him |
| Lindowyn |
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Posted: 23 Nov 2010, 10:26 am
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Replies: 81
Views: 1,133
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| @emelion: thanks its my own doggie :) I can't explain why but I'm extremely sure he did this only to me. As I said I asked my mum once about him, I could not ask much because she would have become suspicious but I think he was very dominant, not only sexually. My dad met him at work and so he became... |
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Forum: Adult Autism Issues Topic: He abused me, but I don't hate him |
| Lindowyn |
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Posted: 23 Nov 2010, 9:24 am
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Replies: 81
Views: 1,133
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| I understand this topic is sensitive and it causes emotional reactions. But in my particular case, I would not call it rape ( I would in any other case though). He didn't force me to have sex with him, he didn't promised me anything for having sex with him, he just one day when I was 9 asked me if I... |
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Forum: Adult Autism Issues Topic: He abused me, but I don't hate him |
| Lindowyn |
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Posted: 23 Nov 2010, 8:40 am
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Replies: 81
Views: 1,133
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| The thing that makes it complicated too, is, that I don't liked beeing touched by most people. When I was a very small child I started crying ( age 1 to 5) and later I just tried to avoid it. But I never had a problem with him touching me, not before he started the sexual thing and not after. He was... |
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Forum: Adult Autism Issues Topic: He abused me, but I don't hate him |
| Lindowyn |
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Posted: 23 Nov 2010, 7:27 am
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Replies: 81
Views: 1,133
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| In Switzerland no one gets listed as sex offender. Here noone even knows that someone was in prison, its forbidden to publish anything like that to the public. Also I know he is not a pedophile and it was not about my age, it was about me beeing submissive. After we don't had contact anymore, everyt... |
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Forum: Adult Autism Issues Topic: He abused me, but I don't hate him |
| Lindowyn |
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Posted: 23 Nov 2010, 6:32 am
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Replies: 81
Views: 1,133
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| Thanks for your answers and thanks that you try to understand. Of course I know, that this is traumatic for most children and I would never think that just because it was ok. for me, it is ok. for others. I can relate to what @aspi-rant said. Now that I'm 21 I see he kinda manipulated me. I wouldn't... |
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Forum: Adult Autism Issues Topic: He abused me, but I don't hate him |
| Lindowyn |
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Posted: 23 Nov 2010, 1:20 am
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Replies: 81
Views: 1,133
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| Thanks for your answer. I thought about stockholm syndrome myself some time ago. What I perhaps need to say is, that my parents didn't know that I have AS or some other disorder and that my mom always cared for me ( my dad is a workaholic, that was also the divorce reason). I think I did like the at... |
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Forum: Adult Autism Issues Topic: He abused me, but I don't hate him |
| Lindowyn |
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Posted: 22 Nov 2010, 5:53 am
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Replies: 81
Views: 1,133
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| I didn't said that I enjoyed it, I only said I wasn't shocked or have problems because of this. Actually I don't know if I enjoyed it, I did not know what sex is exactly. But just because my reaction to it is weird don't means its BS, because I really try to figure out, why I feel this way. Fact is ... |
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