I have an impossible dream. I always thought it would be cool to write an operating system, even if it's not flashy like Windows or Ubuntu/Linux.
This seems bad because I know people need lots of programming experience, but I'm not a programmer at all. There was an OS Development community where I would just post questions and make myself look like an idiot.
The other thing was that I am not a real programmer and I don't think I'll be good at it. I can't solve logical puzzles, at least by myself, and that's what's required of a true programmer. I also ask too many questions. Should I even give up at all?
I wanted to turn to programming as a possible hobby I can pursue because I otherwise have no car, no income, and live with my parents. I wanted to be proud of myself of achieving something.