I Will Appologize!

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1)...How does change effect you in stages?

2)...Statements by Ghosthunter!

Hmmmmm!-Unnnnnnn!-Hmmmmmm! Friendly-
Be-the force Hummmm-unnnn-hmmmmm!
but beware of the darkside. And as I have
been there in many avenues, I tend to prevent
or limit myself from second stabs.

This be part of my dark-force I don't like
to reveal!

Ghosthunter

P.S......hopefully you guys still want to deal with
me because I still like you folks but had to vent
this venom from my system. No ghosts need apply
to my travels!

Wait, so you were upset that other people weren't sharing their feelings at the same time you were?

It's hard to balance reaching out for genuine touch with the fact that many people just aren't interested....

I have the same problem sometimes. The only solution I found - and it sucks, and you would probably never want to do it - is faking yourself.

I try to keep up with your Starship Wrongplanet stories but I am not very good at joining them. I am just really bad at comedy - that's a fact that's not going to change and it's always been one of my flaws. I'm thinking about what to write in the Starship Wrongplanet thread you PM'ed me with.

Yes and no! When change is major for me I seek
comfort in those I know and trust. I confide much
more of my hearts feelings and my minds thoughts.
I was deeply hurt when I tried sharing my plans
with you folks and I felt like a guest in a house, not
one who dwells there! I try to be considerate to
your guys and gals emotions, and this is why I was
upset!
 


This is NOT about the Starship WrongPlanet.
That is to develop a sense of community with
you folks. It is about sharing a mutual, not
singular friendship with others. Some recipitate
better than others, but it felt that for a while, and
especially planning my travels, I felt like a guest!

Sincerely,
Ghosthunter

P.S........When I leave San Francisco, you
(W.P) are my ONLY family and my faithful
"Wallstreet" kick is my physical traveling
companion, and this is why I shared my travel
plans so deeply.

This is a precarious time for me to feel hurt!
I try not to disrespect others and hurt them,
and I was hoping that was mutual.

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It's mutual with me - I hope I haven't offended in any of your other threads.

How are the travel plans coming?

I am alone. I have no family to call close,
my mother is distant too me, I will have no
no I-physical friends except you folks
on my travels and without that this would be
a lonely trip.

My sharing of travel plans with you folks is
the equivelent of telling your friends and
siblings where you are going and what you
will be doing because you care

When I recieved much silence on my travel
plans I felt trampled upon by my own family.
This is why I am appologizing. I don't want
to express my dark side because I have already
walked that dark path and was alone in the world.

Sincerely,
Ghosthunter

GH--I've enjoyed what I've read of your stories. I'm a relative newbie here, but I was still able to appreciate the way you (kindly) poke fun at aspects of WP "culture" through in-jokes that outsiders wouldn't get.

GhostHunter I did not mean to upset you.

I understand what you mean when you want to feel a part of this place and not an outsider. I had this feeling too. You ARE a big part of WP!!

I will be honest here though. When someone gets upset that I do not reply to posts, it reminds me of how incapable I am most of the time and how this non-ability to be spontaneuos or even cognitive hurts others. Then when I know I hurt others then my inabilities s**t me even more and on it goes.

And when it said that my lack of this reflects in me a lack of interest, that hurts too.

You do not need to explain to me the pain of communicating as I have same waiting problems and see the pain it has for you. This only reason why I remind you of patients.

This is true! I am glad to hear from you!
I build my stories around what you guys and
gals say! and let events create a mutual
adventure!

Sincerely,
Ghosthunter
 


This transition has really gruelled my patience on
things and that makes me snippier. I have 4 days
to go in this pressure cooker and then Friday to
Wensday to "Cat sit" my grandmothers cat thus
finalize other details. But until then it's like the
time tuner scenes in Harry Potter #3 movie,
"An no we sit and wait!".

I didn't take offense to you and you were right.
I haven't been as patient with others lately, let
alone myself. But I am hoping I am being "BRAVE"?

Sincerely,
Ghosthunter

Have you decided in which city to look for another job? Have you thought about what you might study if you went back to school? For me, it's a ton easier to wait if I have something to distract myself with, and the more contingency plans I can make for the future, the easier it is. And there's lots of information online that you could look for about schools and such.

Ghosthunter,
For future reference, people aren't always in a mood to be open about their feelings at the same time as someone else. Sometimes someone just might not know what to say. These matters are more drastic and problematic due to issues with emotional reciprocity on the Autistic spectrum. I have had that happen to me a few times as well, first being completely clueless in a social situationas a teenager and then here as well where I have sent out a few PMs that seem to have disappeared into thin air and have been relatively slow to respond to a couple myself. In these cases, It appears that the person just needs time to be left alone. On a larger scale such as the forums, it is still possible that nobody can think of what to say, and it is posible for everybody who logs on to feel like being left alone and only want to read posts.

*pounces ghosthunter*
Good ghosthunter, good.

Ghosthunter, I am somewhat surprised by your recent posts. I understand that you are at crossroads of your life, and that this is a difficult moment for you. [Edit: I removed the rest of my post, because after further consideration I decided that it was in a wrong style.]

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Ghosthunter,

I really enjoy your posts and stories. Also poems you put in your posts. You put a lot of effort in your posts and I Thank You.

I have reread my previous post and I think it sounds too harsh. Ahh... I don't know how else to put it. I'd like to add that I agree with Pizzaboss (except for poems; I am a very unpoetic guy). [Edit: I removed the part that would be out of context without my previous post.]

The city has to have affordable housing
and job opportunity so I can see a college
degree! This is all I know about that part
so far!

I will target my G.E transferables before
I choose a major. Most make the big
mistake to take their major, change their
mind mid-way, and realize that G.E is
a once-done/transferable-later level
of completion!

Parts of this journey are online, but the
physical rents, and jobs are something
a domestic trip will require!