Welcome Sirunus,
It brings back memories. 21 is no fun. It does get better.
Youth is reacting, there is too much Yucck to react to.
I always took the night shift, no one else around, there are lonely jobs, we are good at them.
I was a daydreamer, now a writer.
Much larger range now, not just print, the whole graphic novel.
We do Fantasy Worlds well, just three of us have over a hundred imaginary friends,
Two have become books, the third is a girl in Idaho, she is selfish and keeps them to herself.
Check out Outcast, Games, Puzzles, what ever that thread is called,
The writers group is active, lots of drawing, people like you.
Real education comes from doing, educate yourself.