Asperger syndrome traits, auditory processing disorder, flat affect
Just mumbling a lot about not a lot (again...)
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Waffling on about not a lot as usual!
Woah, what happened to the picture quality?! Sorry about that. There's not much to see anyway and it hides some of the tics And I don't know why I keep randomly pulling my cheek and lips lol.
I had to film this in parts, so the picture and the speech direction might jump around a bit!
Oh, and I'm not entirely sure what that noise near the beginning is, but it's NOT me letting off!
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Transcript (because my speech is not very clear again! Sorry!):
I'm a bit confused because I have lots of traits of Asperger's syndrome(or Asperger's [with a hard 'g'] is the correct term...erm...correct pronunciation), like...I don't have...I don't know...just...I'm hopeless at the whole social thing. I've got about like two proper main friends and a few more sort of acquaintances and...
I know they'll be some stupid people who'll come on and say 'get your arse and actually do something' but, like, it doesn't work like that. Like, I have actually tried to make friends. And other things like I don't fit into the actual category of...like the...I don't fulfil the criteria for Asperger's. So, it's a bit of a mystery. I think it just goes with the Tourette syndrome [and the general neurological dodginess!] and it's really horrible.
And I have other things [traits of Asperger's] as well, not just just the social thing, but...I think...I don't have like major obsessions. I had one major obsession once. I have like interests which come and go, but so does everyone else, so that's not part of it. I don't fulfil that part of the criteria.
I think I have a bit of a flat affect or a bit of a weird affect, which is not...I have not got schizophrenia. Because that's commonly associated with flat affect.
I kind of...there's a point where...most of my emotions seem to be negative, so I go from really irritable and upset and everything to normal. And then I can know I'm happy, but I don't kind of fully feel happy, apart from like at one point where I might go really high...well, not high, but my emotions will go high, and then I'll have like a small amount of that feeling and then it goes back down to normal and just knowing I'm happy. There's a like a gap [unintelligable mumble]. I don't know...it's got really worse recently, lately, and also...
I also have auditory processing disorder I thnk because certain sounds like a helicopter - it's like really obvious what the sound is but, or like an alarm or something and I'm like, 'what's that sound? It's like really familiar...it's like...' and me a while to get it [and it's really obvious once I've worked it out] and...apart from on these videos, I talk to loudly apparently [looks out window] and there's like [cut in filming].
And apparently like I often [pronounced a bit weirdly?] I often...well I do often feel like annoyed or irritable or angry [unintelligable mumble], but I apparently sound really cross a lot of the time when I'm not.
I've...I find it difficult sometimes to use the phone - to hear what people are saying. [Twists neck] sorry.
What else? Loads of things I can't remember, I can't think of them at the moment. Erm, yeah, can't think of them at the moment.
Back to the Asperger's thing...I don't know, because I can read body language and facial language and I do know the signs to give back, but I still have a problem with it and I think that's why I wouldn't actually fit the criteria [video cuts off].
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I don't have Aspergers, I'm just socially inept
Dodgy circuitry! Diagnosed: Tourette syndrome. Suspected: auditory processing disorder, synaesthesia. Also: social and organisation problems. Heteroromantic asexual (though still exploring)