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Hi folks
signed up because I was reading a thread on an unrelated Forum I've been a member of for sometime, but about Aspergers. Took an online test & my score came in at 35..which according to that site meant (it was a test by someone like Sasha Baron Cohen, although not quite that but cant remember the name exactly ) ...anyway it said a score of 35 meant aspergers

I havent got a clue whether I have this or not but well basically i have always felt like i function different to most people and ive had a few problems at work in the last year or so which have made me reflect long and hard about who i am, what makes me tick etc

I figured it was worth coming somewhere like this, telling people who know a bit about the subject a bit about me & well, see what you guys and girls (although i think its mainly guys who have this so ive read) think about it..so here goes:


I'm 21. Left school at 18 with better than average grades. Have worked in offices for the last 3 years. Been in my current job for the last couple of years but have been finding the job itself hard work for at least the last year. 2 or 3 reasons for this are i find it very hard to interact with most of my colleagues. I think a lot of them think im a bit weird, i probably make people feel weird round me, i try to make conversation and small talk but usually regret it, find it hard to think of stuff to say, blurt something out which tends to stop the conversation dead. saying that i do get on with 1 or 2 people quite well & have a laugh and joke. I manage a couple of staff & it just feels awkward almost all the time, i sort of know they look awkward when they see me coming. not that they have anything to fear from me, but they seem to feel they do. call me paranoid but i feel im right about this. second thing is i have trouble with interruptions. it is not repetitive work and i kind of sometimes feel i would be better at a job that did involve repitition. my boss, i know, has told other people she's had difficulty with giving me instructions when im busy with something. had a few arguments. 3rdly i sort of suffer from 'tunnel vision'. not good in a job with various different responsibilities where you have to 'wear different hats' several times an hour, if you like. if i am concentrating on something, i find it hard to see beyond that one task. i therefore get into the zone and just keep going till i finish (even if it takes several hours). if i do get interrupted i often have to go right back to the beginning and start over again, which means tasks take me much longer than normal people. ive argued with my boss the job is too big, but not got much sympathy. this is why for the last few months ive started to look internally at myself...and here i am

i have a small group of friends who are all people ive known since i was a kid. i have made very few friends (as in people id stay in touch with) as an adult, maybe 1 or 2, that's it. the people who do think of me as friends think im a bit strange, "the enigma" as they say and i really only get in touch for important events like weddings, etc. i tend not to stay in touch and just enjoy 'conversation' in the way most people seem to do, probably cos i find it very difficult. i dont text people unless there is a specific reason, not on facebook or anything like that. just dont see the attraction. i tend to get into daft situations because of feeling awkward. For example i stayed at the home of a friend where he lives with his wife and baby. we went out & i ended up leaving the group and walking back to the house, leaving the friend and others. when i got there i didnt want to knock on the front door in case i woke the baby, so i slept in my car. the next day everyone couldnt beleive id slept in the car, i just said i didnt want to wake the baby, they just looked at me like im weird, tried to reassure me, but they looked a bit shocked.

in group meetings at work i often think im understanding what someone's saying, then i recap with them and find i am totally off track with what they were trying to get across. ive made assumptions which were wrong and my logical train of thought has got me totally off topic. when people are talking i often start thinking about something completely unrelated, something that might of happened the day before. did a memory game thing at work, where you had to say something you liked that began with the same letter as your first name e.g. i'm bowie and i like books, and go round in a circle and remember the name and thing for each person. i was only 3rd in the line but i hadnt been paying attention & i had to just apologise, after a moment of panic

in group discussions with "the boys" i try to join in, often i end up being the butt of the joke, one example was a discussion between a group of work colleagues about music. conversation switched to david bowie (hence my nick ) people who liked him versus people who didnt. i then make the comment, "He was s**t in Laby rynth". cue stunned silence followed by laughter all round, except from me.

i obsess about 1 thing to the exclusion of all else. for example i spent 3 or 4 months looking at a certain model of car, spending all free-time on the internet looking at pics, reviews, videos of this car, even looking at the same pics over and over again over a period of months almost ALL the time until i eventually bought one, then the obsession sort of faded.

i'm often dropping things or tripping up as i walk for no apparant reason?? getting annoyed at tiny things that hinder my progress. for example you need to do a photocopy at work. when you get to the machine its jammed. you spend time unblocking it. re-set the machine, then find its out of paper. go to get some paper and the cupboard its kept in is locked...annoyance starts to build...go for the key to the cupboard but someone's taken it...you ask around no one has it...ARGHHHHHHH!

anyway, hi everyone, not sure if any of the stuff ive written tells anyone anything, maybe im on the wrong track with this, but any comments v. welcome

Welcome to WrongPlanet, here is a link to the aspie test if you are interested:

http://www.rdos.net/eng/Aspie-quiz.php

cheers for that. just done the test. results are 111 of 200 for aspie. 107 of 200 for neurotypical. what do those scores tell you?

It definitely sounds like AS might be a possibility to you. I'd recommend talking to a doctor about seeing a specialist for a diagnosis.

Welcome!

Is Bowie your name, or a reference?

Thanks for the test, by the way.

"Your Aspie score: 145 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 51 of 200
You are very likely an Aspie"

Hahaha.

you gave us a post of great length and completeness... We do that, sometimes...

welcome to the show that never ends...

thanks for the welcome.

Bowie is mainlya way of protecting my identity from people who might know me, I'm a chicken s**t I know


...but its also referred to in my OP, it was a moment which ive not forgotten when it comes to feeling different from others

Welcome to WP.

signed up because I was reading a thread on an unrelated Forum I've been a member of for sometime, but about Aspergers. Took an online test & my score came in at 35..which according to that site meant (it was a test by someone like Sasha Baron Cohen, although not quite that but cant remember the name exactly ) ...anyway it said a score of 35 meant aspergers

Welcome aboard Wrong Planet, new-citizen Bowie.

To WrongPlanet!! !

Welcome to the boards Bowie. I'm a newbie too, but I'm already feeling right at home. Hope you do too!

Welcome to Wrong Planet!

Magliabechi.

Welcome