Hi, I've been a long time reader here and finally decided to "jump in" I have a son who was diagnosed with autism and attends a special school. When I learned he had autism (I had no idea autism even existed before his diagnosis!) I started reading all I could about it. I was so shocked to see so much of myself described in the pages! I didn't know you were supposed to look people in the eye, I had always looked at people's mouths when they spoke, I had always hated to shake hands with people, wore my socks and underwear inside out because the seams bothered me so much, couldn't handle certain smells and sounds, was ocd as a child, (if I touch the faucet three times I won't die,sort of stuff. )I have always had obsessive interests. When I was in fifth grade I was obsessed with absynnian cats, not just cats but absynnian cats! My sister would accuse me of hanging around her and her friends because I couldn't make friends on my own-true. I took a couple of online autism/asperger's tests and was absolutely shocked at how high I scored...I really had no idea. It was actually a relief to have some idea of why I have always felt on the outside looking in and felt socially awkward and shunned. My husband scores higher on the autism tests than I do, we get along great. We both like staying home with our family and pursuing our current obsessions! I have 6 kids, the more autistic ones are easiest to get along with, the more NT ones drive me crazy!! We went to an extremely pro-life church after I married, and I thought God wanted us to have multiply and fill the earth, I know, I know (now). Anyway after 6 cesareans, scar tissue, and chronic pain I decided I had done my bit... Maybe sometime I'll tell you about when I went to the church that was dresses only for women and didn't believe in meds....don't attend church at all now...long story...much happier now, too. Anyway, I'm not good at social stuff, probably said too much, I couldn't believe it when I started reading this forum, and identified with so much of what you all were saying. Hi, and glad to be here. Hope ya'll don't mind putting up with me.