Hi from Colorado

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I just have to laugh and say 'yup, same here' to most of the intro posts here...it's just nice to know that there are so many others who just quietly live, uncomfortable in this place, trying to get along.

Some details about me:

-I tend to score low in web self-testing but on the spectrum.
-I always just worried that I was selfish for no apparent reason.
-I'm good at troubleshooting computer stuff, bad with people.
-I hate watching sports and love cooking and deep, truthful conversation.
-Alcohol is my life mate, it turns down the social anxiety and general 'inputs'. Not physically addicted, just self-medicating(I recently quit altogether for 2 weeks just to see that there were no ill effects).
-I never have been able to even force myself to look people in the eyes when speaking with them. It's like lifting weights when I try.
-I am tired of having no friends, so here I am. My flag is on the one working google map here.
-I carry a huge sack on my back with all of my screw-ups, social or not, from my whole life. They pop into my head randomly for rehashing...fun.
-Stoopid little internal random melodies play in sync to my footsteps.
-I feel my loud emotions boil up from my chest and then get stuck in my head, freezing me up and making me resort to some logical pro/con response, since now all the feelings are in overload...error...error...
-I love dogs and do really well with them, at least.
-I have an overactive empathy response.(I really would rather not see that pic of someone in pain or hear someone mess up on stage, because it physically hurts me)
-Even if it turns out I'm not officially diagnosed, I relate to everyone here and would probably prefer knowing y'all over normal humaans anyway.

Anyway, that's my story and I'm stickin' to it,
Troy

Welcome!

It's comforting, isn't it? Welcome...


I hope that's true. I used to call alcohol my "best friend." So, very similar. It was always there for me, always understood me, was always happy to see me. Until I found out that it wasn't. I used to say that I could easily quit but that I just didn't want to. Now I'm a recovering alcoholic.


I'm not sure what you expected to learn from a two-week experiment. If you were testing yourself and think you "passed" because you abstained for two weeks, I would encourage you to keep testing yourself. Really find out what you're capable of.

Before you take this the wrong way (too late?), I'm definitely not saying that you are physically addicted to alcohol. While I wouldn't necessarily be the last person to tell you that, I would never be the first. I *will* say that I totally identify with being a loner with alcohol as a "life mate" or "best friend" or whatever.

And I really don't mean to come down on you, here. Quite the opposite: I'm really happy you showed up. Just know that I'm slightly (only slightly) concerned -- and also that I'm hyper-sensitive to this, so it's only natural that I'd pick that out.

I LOVE Colorado, and I'd be inclined to take you up on your offer to visit and not socialize together Anyway, a big WELCOME!

I understand and I'll think on it...I joined the Marines way back just to see what my limits were, so I get that.

Thanks very much, and the concern is appreciated.

Troy

Welcome to Wrong Planet!

Hello and welcome.

- Mich.

Welcome!

Hello and welcome to the Wrong Planet forums, Troy.

thanks all

Hey, welcome to the forums. Not only did I used to be in the marine corps as well, but I live in NW Oklahoma, which is pretty close to SE Colorado - so, I'd be game meeting up and letting you kick my ass in pool (haven't played in years)

Cool...the pool table just sits here with it's cover on...no fun playing by myself. So I'm not great either.