Hi, I don't have a blog, so I'll just introduce myself here. I have a son diagnosed with aspergers, which was my introduction to understanding MY FAMILY. Suddenly, all those years of standing outside the car waiting for my mom to get the coat hanger because she had locked us out - again - started to make sense. Those years of silence and not knowing how to have a conversation - my mom standing at the kitchen window and spacing out for what seemed hours . . . My grandpa always tinkering and talking for hours (in a monologue) about electronics, Indian massacres, and movies to his 8 year old granddaughter. Absentmindedness and disorganization that run so strong in my family that we call it the "Smith gene", and all laugh when we get together. My own obsession with books (hyperlexia) and academic perfection - but always feeling somehow not getting the social things. Intense loneliness and desire to crack the dating code. Weird "phases/rules", such as refusing to say "gesundheit" or "bless you" when people sneezed; hating small talk; elaborately pretending to wash my hands when I was growing up, instead of just taking less time and trouble and just washing the darn things; not asking people how their relatives were because I didn't really know them, and didn't want to pretend to care about them if I didn't know them; and, a, in hindsight, particularly painful phase where I didn't want to say thank you because it seemed so cursory.
Who I am now is way better than who I was in my teens and 20's. Reading Rousseau's "Social Contract" in college suddenly helped me to understand society and its interactions as a system, and started me on my road to a better approach to interacting with others. I even enjoy it now. It's been painful sometimes, but I have been successful both academically and in my career. By the time I had reached my 30's, I had developed a knack for noticing things among people in the office that NT's missed (this is because I tried/try so hard to understand people and watch them very closely - in a hopefully noncreepy way). Combining this knack for noticing what's going on with people, my obsession with developing technical expertise, actually enjoying memorizing boring and arcane regs/text, wanting to do the right and honest thing, and not getting emotionally caught up in situations, I actually ended up moving into management and doing very well at it. One of my employees told me that she had me pegged for aspie for years, and felt like it has helped me do what I do. She is one of my most loyal advocates, which I think is absolutely necessary for aspie success.
I have a lot more love and compassion for my mom and grandpa now, and a fierce protection and love for my son. I accept the Smith family strengths along with its weaknesses. Many of us are creative, imaginative, able to hyperfocus, and score high on intelligence tests. I am so grateful to sites like this, and people like you, to give hope, perspective, and a sense of belonging to people like my son. I wish that I had had a community like this to go to when I was growing up . . .
As I am female, and I suspect myself of being hyperlexic aspie, I am interested in hearing from other aspie females - especially moms. There are not many books, nor much research material, on the female aspie experience. Because of this, I have this longer term research idea in mind, and would like to hear (I guess in this case, read) others' thoughts/insights.
Take care,
Colleen