i never know what to write as a greeting (gah!!) so i'm just going to say hi to everyone. i hope it satisys as a greeting. man oh man, i'm getting so messed up lately. it feels like asperger's is ruining my life!
i like to listen to all kinds of music, classical music, anything really. i enjoy playing piano and guitar but i seem to have a confidence problem i also like computers. in fact, i seem to like almost anything! or like i tend to get obsessed with somethings and then i tend to seek perfection in those things. but it's hard to be perfect in anything! it takes a lot of work, and i think that's why i get so tired all the time. oh sorry, everyone i forgot to mention who i am 23/m/from new york.
anyway ever since i lost my last job, i've been thinking of maybe going to law school, got a 160 on lsat's but then i thought no, being a lawyer just isn't for me. my mind wanders too much when i'm not obsessed with something in particular. kind of like flying a kite while skydiving! okay that was random. what was i saying, oh yea... so i'm pretty good in economics and financial related things and so i thought, i'm going to start a business! and that's where i'm currently am right now. i have it set i need to start a business. to be honest, it's scary because a) i have no idea how to do this and b) i know i HAVE to do this.
okay remember how i said my mind wanders so much? well, that's what's bothering me because i know that to continue a business and make it successful, a person needs INSANE focus. I have focus, but only for a short time, or at max 5 months (like how long i kept my last job). i guess a part of the reason i lost it was because i just really can't stand the fact that i have to work under someone else, i guess you can say i have entreprenurial spirit! but also having asperger's had a lot to do with it too, like my boss was a lawyer and although i did my job well, she wasn't too happy with the way i was organizing things around the place.
here i go again, talking about myself. sometimes i feel ashamed that i keep talking about myself so much and not listening to others. it's strange because in real life, i'm like the opposite. i keep to myself and try to listen to others.
anyway, i haven't been here on the forums for very long but i've been reading some of the posts and i already like everyone here! i think this is a great place to talk with other fellow aspies and make some friends. as they say in french, enchante!