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I am a student in my late 20ies, studying English language and literature in a country east of... “of Eden”, let’s say, it fits prettily to the context, maybe I will tell more later. I call myself Tinwoman, for I suppose to have “no heart”- that is, as in most of our cases, mirror neurons and other neurotypical traits. But I do not want to by an NT either, and I’m fully convinced that no professional would diagnose me as such. The Aspie-Quiz (150 questions) said “You are very likely an Aspie”, and my lifelong experience can confirm that. As a child, I had always a lot of trouble when interacting with others. Adults called me “naughty”, whereas children “daft”. I didn’t know why, especially in the last case. I was able to read when I was four, I read a lot, and since my 6th birthday, I have been writing my own stories and novels. At the age of 10, I won a literary competition (countrywide), and some drawing competitions as well. I’ve always had passions- when younger, I got “addicted” to some book characters, and since 11, 5 year old, to particular cultures or historical persons (ancient Egypt, Napoleon, Russia and Turkey- everything on them). I have no difficulty in learning languages (apart from English, I am fluent in German and I also learned Latin, French and Turkish), since I have a good auditory memory. Now, I am working on a small novel about a child with AS – but I won’t reveal more, so that not to spoil it... Back to the topic, I have observed a significant progress in my emotional and social skills during these 20something years. Maybe thanks to reading so many novels, where I can clearly see the emotions of the characters- because they are stated- and then recall them in similar situations in real life. Maybe due to experience, as I store many events in memory, including my mistakes, for years. Maybe because life has taught me that it is better to be to altruistic than too selfish. I wonder whether I have changed into a “goody-goody”? Nevertheless, I do not have so many problems in interactions as previously. I don’ have thousands of acquaintances, just a few close “friends”- well, it is a big word for me-at least people who like and understand me and usually have many things in common, similar interests or problems. And I feel people in the student’s home where I live are rather friendly to me. However, I had some troubles at work, as I already worked as a teacher- although I like children and youths, it was difficult to manage the whole class, and the strangest remarks from bosses I could translate here as exactly as I can, were that my gait and motion are “somehow awkward, but hard to define exactly” or “as in a child”. Presently, I am not working not because of any mental disorders, but because of a more widespread crisis, and therefore difficulty in finding an appropriate job for most intellectuals around me.
As I have written somewhere in my profile, I am not sure whether I have AS (I mean Asperger Syndrom, not Autism Spectrum) because I may as well have NLD. (Greentea or someone mentioned in the “FIRST TIME IN HISTORY”-thread that there is an interesting thread on NLD here, but, honestly, I am not very good at computer and searching issues, and I’m not sure whether I will find it?) As far as I know from books on autism spectrum, people with Aspergers excel more in math, science and computers than in arts and languages. I am decidedly auditory and have problems with visual memory. But an NLD- person can also be called an Aspie, in our not-NT-register, can’t they? I like this word. Many years ago, my uncle used to have a cat called Aspi (spelled like this) although in those days nobody in my country knew anything of AS. And I like the cluster "asp".
At present, I don’t have the possibility to diagnose myself at a psych-ologist- or –iatrist, but as soon as I have, I will...

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