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Hi! I'm dream_princess, I'm 20 and I'm studying ancient religions. (I learned this by heart when living abroad. Usually I forget to introduce myself or even to say hi...)

Well, I finally decided to join this forum because of one of my university classes today. It was about special education in highschools (I'm more interested about the ancient part of the course). The teacher was talking about Asperger autism and we were reading what Asperger wrote about autistic kids. For 6 years now I'm already thinking about being austistic myself or not. After reading this article today, I wish I would not even have to think about it...

So, I've been reading on wp for over 4 years and now I wanted to join. Today I took this test on rdos;net again.
I got "Your Aspie score: 168 of 200,
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 36 of 200,
You are very likely an Aspie"
A little bit more than a year ago I had aspie score 179 and neurotypical score 24.
I know this does not say anything. I really want to know whats the matter with me, but I'm actually afraid of getting diagnosed because I want to continue studying, I want to keep working with (little) kids in my free time and I don't know at all how I should tell my parents about it.

Speaking about my parents, maybe a little bit about me. I moved back in with my parents after living abroad for 1 1/2 years. As far as I remember, I never really had friends, at least not the way other kids had. There was a time when I refused to talk, greet or even just look at people I didn't know. I was always quiet and dreamy. I don't like people touching me, I had to really practise hard to even get to the level of eye contact I have today. Sometimes I'm getting really angry because of getting interupted when doing something or having to listen to a sound I can't stand or somebody doing something I don't want them to do. Since I'm little I'm responding on situations like this with terrible anger which turns over into crying and/or scratching and biting myself. I could just keep up writing untill it would be a whole book...

But at the same time, realising that symptoms like this would fit for asperger autism, I am not sure at all. I was told my whole life by parents, family and teachers that I'm just a quiet, shy (I am not shy at all!) girl who needs to try and work harder. Also, the prof holding the lecture today, was saying things like "an autistic person would not at all be able to be in this room" (it was very very crowded, and no, it was not nice to sit in the middle of the room being circled by people I didn't want to be that close with and all I tried was not touching them...but f.e. in the morning, I got hot, nervous, ancious and confused when sitting in a very small room with people sitting all around me)

I could write and write and write but I have to stop now

Welcome to Wrong Planet!

Welcome...! (And by the way, the professor was wrong.)

Hi, I can relate to much of what you write. I am not diagnosed myself, but started wondering if i might be an aspie when i started working with some aspie-kids. I was also seen as just a quiet and shy girl, and was told to talk more and engage in group activities at school. I think it is easy for girls on the spectrum to go trough school without the asperger being noticed. And for myself the problems have become more visable now that I go to the university and when i started working.

I think the professor might have been talking about low functioning autistics, cause there is many on the spectrum that attends big classes and might even become professors themselves.

If everyone knew the things some autistic people can do and put up with, they'd be amazed.

Welcome.

Welkome to WP

Mick

Hi, dream_princess. Glad you made it in here. I hung around for a while before speaking up, partly 'cause it took time to figure out how the site works. Your description of yourself reminds me of my own younger years. I was a pretty strange kid, and everyone knew it. But it was the Fab Fifties, and no one knew what to do. At least now there's more help available than there was, plus you have us lol.

Welcome, Jack

Yeah, you're on the right planet Funny a prof would say that and there you are, proving him/her wrong, and he might not even realize it!! You're also pretty brave, sitting in a room when you felt uncomfortable and didn't even make complain about it outwardly!! All that being said, Welcome to WP Hope you like it here