Hi folks.
I usually go in chat in another forum which has quite a population of people with Asperger's and Autism, and quite a few of them have asked me if I had Asperger's since my mannerisms as well as my tendency to lurk and not say much in chat or jumping into chat with an irrelevant comment is common. My psychiatrist has mentioned to me that I might have Asperger's and he needs more time to see whether I fit the diagnosis. My dad constantly bugs me to talk more to people and practice interacting with people and learning how to talk to people better but it's not working well with me. I'm starting to feel as if my dad rejects the way how I am with people. My mom is angry about how people in town have asked her if I have Asperger's or a form of autism. My parents tend to think that having autism is a mild form of mental retardation, which I find very offensive. I'm quite intelligent, I have graduated from college, I just don't articulate myself very well or do well in social situations.
I must admit that I came into this forum wondering what you would say about having a job and the workplace environment, since I have a tremendous amount of anxiety about it. It's horrible how I'm constantly scared or on the good days, anxious at work, no matter if I'm doing well or poorly at work. I'm always afraid, and this often makes my PTSD worse. It's crazy how they feed each other as well as my depression. I often feel that my past trauma have made me end up like this with social situations since I'm always unsure of whether I can trust people or if they will end up laughing at me or rejecting me.
Thanks for reading this.
28 Apr 2012, 8:33 pm
