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I happened to watch the movie called Adam (2009). When I realized I related close to the experience of the character.

When I was little, I used to say what is on my mind, and be truthful instead of grateful. Which would be considered to be rude. I would find my self staring at people when I should break eye contact or I would not make eye contact when it is expected of me. Language wasn't one of my strong points. I would sometimes start halfway in the sentence or switch topic frequently. Motor control accuracy is difficult and I find my self often clumsy. I found out eventually when kids were nasty to me that my mom paid them to be my friend in primary school. I never truly had any real friends. I ended up going to a different high school and that is where I started to feel isolated and couldn't relate. I started retracting into my shell. I found high school was truly horrible. Technikon was different and I felt I could express my self again. Making friends wasn't then an issue as I was pulled into a group by another friends that required assistance from me in the class. I have difficulty trusting my mother as I know she is trying to influence other people indirectly to interact with me and when I find out I distrust that person and blame it on her again.

I do have difficulty expressing myself and explaining my self. I would get mad if somebody couldn't get what I was trying to tell them. I wouldn't say I'm any good at maths, algebra was good up to a point and then I lost interest. Geometry kinda killed it for me. It feels like a thousand thoughts are going through my head. I didn't like it when I was interrupted and wanted to finish what I started. I lived in my own little world and didn't want anyone to interfere with what I am busy with. I'm constantly assessing the environment but it never appears to be enough to fit in. I can fake my way through most things in life. I even faked in my marriage, but I ended it after I knew that things will never really change so that I can be myself. Her ADHD attention seeking was draining me too much and then I wasn't attracted to her at all. I was hoping that there was a cure of how to be attracted to her but the feeling of love wasn't enough.

It becomes tiring to concentrate all the time to fit in and be sociable. Especially if I was confronted, by somebody, when they think they were helping, they only made it worse for me. That or the bullies.

Recently I was chased out of the reception of a movie house because I was sitting there watching people, I was thinking about which movie I wanted to watch, but I guess I took too long to decide. I guess I was coming off as a creep. I recently tried asking a girl out to only end up getting the standard response of "I have a boyfriend". That is how I happened to stumble upon this site. So far from what I have read I could relate to most of what some would say on here.

hiya Stalk
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your mother paid kids to be your friends? that is what good mothers do.

Hi Stalk, welcome to Wrong Planet

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Mick

Welcome to WP! I hope you find friends here.

By the way, I love, love, love that movie "Adam". I'm NT and my boyfriend is autistic so of course we had to watch it together! :p The only part I didn't like is the ending.

Hey, I wouldn't worry about expressing yourself. You seem to be doing it a lot better than me. My experiences taught me that speaking my mind was bad.

Also, Mary and Max was the first movie I saw that I connected with. I also showed it to my gf/ex. Have you seen it by chance?
(I have not seen Adam. I guess I need to check it out.)