Greetings from South Africa

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Joined: 3 Jun 2013
Gender: Male
Posts: 4

04 Jun 2013, 5:27 pm

Greetings, I am Archer. Emissary of the Gorgonites! Or otherwise: Hi, I'm Ricky.

I actually have a profile here that I made in 2006 or so, but nothing ever came of that. So 7 years ago I thought I might have Asperger's but I have since become less sure. I haven't been to a psychiatrist and, frankly, don't want to go. It's expensive and I don't want to get talked into going for repeated sessions, as I cannot afford it. And I don't want to drag my family into my awkwardness. It's my problem, not theirs.

Generally speaking, I am socially rather inept, single, a virgin at 22 and without desire to be in a relationship. From the sideline (or, as the fly on the wall who sees it all) it looks like a pain in the ass. The pretty moments are fleeting and the sexual moments seem exaggerated. Mostly just problematic. I don't want that. Also, I identify as pansexual... which is pretty worthless, in the end.

My interests used to and to a lesser degree include mostly typical things like video games, music, books and the like. I've tried my hand at hobbies but lose interest very quickly. I actually used to have a great many hobbies. Sketching, making puppets, making masks etc. Was fun... a decade ago. Oh, and I used to play guitar but eventually lost interest in that as well when I realised wanting to be in a band was not really what I wanted.

I work as a graphic designer/sign writer/freelance editor of books. I hate clients. It takes a bit of effort on my part to look interested in what they actually want when I communicate with them. The only reason I do pay attention is because I don't want the unnecessary hassle of being chewed out or even fired for negligence. So I just meander along month after month.

I'm a self-less selfish person. By that I mean that I'm not really interested in other peoples' affairs, but won't do anything to the detriment of someone else. In a sense I'm a bit self-sacrificial sometimes. There's a lot of s's here.

Officially I'm not autistic or an aspie. I don't know if I have anything or just am clinically depressed. I just know that society is a farce and I don't want any part of it.

Pleased to meet you. (Or am I?!)

P.S. I am.