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It's a long story, but baisically, I am new here so hai!

Long, boring, letting it all out life story type bit coming up so beware...

Sooo I'm 19, and I'm not sure if i am somewhere on the spectrum, or just extremely introverted, but I have never really had any friends or any real inclination to, sure the idea sounds nice, but in reality I struggle because I don't stand out in a group, I would always rather listen or spectate than take part in any discussions etc, I also have a very hard time trusting anyone as I have been bullied in the past, lots of two facedness and bitching at high school, as I'm sure alot of people suffered, but I took it to heart xP
I have also suffered with depression and anxiety, I find it hard to leave the house sometimes, but other times I know I could if I wanted to, I just have no inclination to :p but if I do have to go anywhere new, I have to go with my mum, new places make me nervous esp if I have to talk to official people, for example I recently had an interview for a college course, and I am very aware that it is getting more and more obvious and weird looking, a fully grown person of nearly 20 years should not be turning up to everything with her mother, but if it was between going alone or not going atall, i wouldnt go.
When I was 11 my teachers actually suggested to my mum that I get tested for aspergers, however it came up negative, I was fine, just shy and would grow out of it... Except i havent, idk if anyone knows how accurate those tests are?
I think my emotional intelligence is good, i can judge other people quite well, what they are feeling etc, but I have spent most of my life observing other people and also studying psychology, but my own emotions are.. Childlike i think, and a little bit manipulative, it might be hard to tell because i was on fluroxetine, an antidepressant also known as prozac from when i was 16 until just a few months ago, which just numbs everything, but i feel like my mood can change very quickly, i can get upset and sulk alot.. But i am also very enthusiastic about alot of things, new things especially, but baisically, i dont think i have good control of my emotions...
Wow this is a rambley post, well done if you read it! XD I guess I just wanted to say hi and give a little back story, I keep alot of this bottled up so it all tries to spill out when i try to summarise like this, hoping that i can vent eventually all of it out here, even if nobody actually reads it or replies, its just good to get it out haha xD

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My understanding is diagnosing AS is a bit of a judgement call, and given the countless ways autism can manifest itself, the whole thing can be...tricky. But regardless of your diagnostic status, I hope you find WP to be helpful, and I hope you feel at home here. Welcome!

Hi, its nice to meet you. Sounds like we are pretty similar in trying to figure out where we fit in. I match all of the aspergers criteria but can fake normalcy for short periods of time. Im a more profound thinker and a huge geek but can pass for well balanced and charming because im polite and let others do the talking. Mostly because they dont care about or understand my hobbies and I dont want to make them feel small. I do have a bipolar 2 diagnosis but was told by one pyc that it was asperger but something to do with insurence had him put down bi polar. This is getting lengthy now. Well just wanted to say hello and share my thoughts on your thoughts.

I'm not really certain how to address the issue of the accuracy of the tests, but I do have some general statements. Firstly, my advice would be that if you think that it's important for you (either peace of mind or because you need educational or financial assistance) to get yourself tested as being on the autism spectrum or for Asperger's syndrome, then I would suggest that see a psychiatrist for evaluation. I'm not sure about your personal situation, but if you have some form of medical insurance that includes mental health, then it's an option that you need to consider. Otherwise, you need to weight the cost of the psychiatric evaluation with the amount of money that you currently make. I wouldn't be terribly worried about how you tested before; there's plenty of literature on ASD and AS on the internet, and if after reading it, you still feel that you it fits you and your situation very well, then that's all that matters in the end. I found it useful to write it all down so I could remember what was important and relevant.

Secondly, even if you're not on the spectrum, if you're very introverted then it's likely that some of the ASD help and information will probably be useful or helpful.


Thirdly, welcome aboard. As a person who's also recently gotten into this, I can relate to the worries that you might not be on the spectrum or not knowing what you are. But you'll never know until you explicitly find out.