Hi all,
Im not really sure where to post this question so I thought I'd put it in the newbie section.
Im diagnosed Bi polar and anxiety disorder, but I feel like there's something more happening.
I get along with my work mates pretty well. I pass people in the street, they smile and say hello. People wave to me often. I really don't think they are the issue.
Apart from the normal bi polar cycles I go though, I have this feeling that I'm unwanted socially. I crave and long for close friendships. Yet when the opportunity arises to be around others where that may happen,
I feel like a total social and emotional disconnect. Its like I'd rather them go away.
I've been with my partner for 20 years, have two awesome kids and don't feel this way with them. It's just others socially. I've become basically 'friend-less' because of this.
I've described my symptoms on many online polls and questionnaires, and more often than not they say I may have possible Avoidance personality disorder.
I've mentioned this to the two mental health professionals I have been seeing over the last few years, but as far as I understand APD isn't recognised in Australia and they basically dismissed the notion.
Does anyone else have this problem/feeling?
Any advice comments are appreciated.