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berta49
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18 Jun 2014, 8:43 am

Hi,I'm new here.Not sure if I have AS or not.I have 2 stepchildren and a child with my husband all AS.Hubby was just diagnosed recently. I've had depression/anxiety issues most of my life,counselling etc.But in spite of that,something has always felt"not right"Weird feelings,interactions,lack of friends,uncomfortable with eye contact,social skills,uncomfortable in most social situations,even with my family,weird moods,occasional weird outbursts,socks have to fit just right,tied shoes must feel exactly the same or I will endlessly retie them and basically a lot of things on the checklist.The only thing I'm puzzled about is the long term memory.I don't seem to have it,like my family,but then I've had so much anxiety all my life,maybe it could have affected it? I was diagnosed with general anxiety years ago and more recently,depression and adhd. Though I meet the criteria for those, something is still wrong no matter what. I don't have insurance,I might possibly qualify for some free counselling through the county,I've applied for that.Just wondering,if it's not inappropriate to ask,I know I need to see a doctor,but would anyone mind giving me some input from your experience? It would be greatly appreciated! Thanks :)



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18 Jun 2014, 10:36 am

You fit right in, Berta--you're already playing the games!

Welcome to the Forum. There are lots of people here with lots of experiences.



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18 Jun 2014, 11:36 am

:?: Not sure what you meant by the "already playing the games" comment.Hope it wasn't meant as an insult,not sure what to make of it. If I'm wrong,sorry. I'm wanting to find answers,I want to not feel like I do and I don't understand my life.I don't want to feel like I have to be approved here,just find help and hopefully friendship that can be reciprocated



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18 Jun 2014, 1:27 pm

Hi Berta,

I didn't mean those kind of games.

I meant the games in "Random" (e.g., add your age to get a number," "count by 5's to get to a million."

I'm sorry for the misunderstanding.



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18 Jun 2014, 2:18 pm

Welcome to Wrong Planet!


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19 Jun 2014, 2:41 pm

Hi & Welcome,
Its very possible you might be on the spectrum. I was not aware of it for a long time, although I always knew and was identified as being 'different'. Seeking help for various issues with doctors I too was only diagnosed with General Anxiety Disorder and minor depression. Eventually I came to realize the truth, but did not seek a formal diagnosis, as the military was my career. But having a diagnosis can be the best way to go. It depends on your situation and if it would help more then hurt. By hurt I mean sometimes it comes with a stigma, as many do not understand ASD very well in the general public.

I am absolutely sure Kraftiekortie was not trying to be insulting. He is a supportive regular here and was only talking in ASD shorthand. Some of us also use humor as a way to lighten the atmosphere and make people feel more relaxed. It can help in a forum where the issues and situations are often quite hard. But we modify our approach usually once we realize it is not in sync with that person.



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20 Jun 2014, 10:36 am

Thanks for the welcome. I just misunderstood the comment.But I'm glad I joined this site,and I appreciate the encouragement I've already found here. I think I would rather know one way or another,because of the struggle of how I feel practically every day.Feels like I'm living in two worlds sometimes.Sometimes I feel what I would perceive as normal for a short time,others I'm constantly trying to get through the day uncomfortable in my mind and in so many ways.Sometimes I feel my world is in my head like I have a glass helmet over my head and I'm "inside" looking out and only observing the world that is outside my "glass helmet",kind of like watching a movie.I hope this isn't too much info or too weird(there's a lot more than that!) It's hard to find someone who understands what I mean.



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20 Jun 2014, 10:46 am

I believe people will understand perfectly on this site; you've come to the right place.



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20 Jun 2014, 10:53 am

Thanks so much!



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20 Jun 2014, 10:54 am

Thanks so much!