Hello everyone! I'm new here and I hope to be able to learn more about myself and to be able to help others in the process too. Never been "officially" diagnosed but have struggled socially my whole life. I've never really gave much thought about how different I was because I thought most people just accepted me. That is until one day last year while working I overheard 2 coworkers say about me as I had left the room, "Yeah somethings definitely not right with him." I was devastated. I thought I was being "normal" even though I knew deep down inside it just didn't come naturally. It caused so much anxiety and panic I ended up having to quit because I started seeing that people weren't really NICE to me they were messing with me and it never made me feel good the way did mess with me. "It's just a joke" they'd say. Anyways I've moved states because of family and a new job my wife got and I seem to be doing better but I can still tell people try to start the process of whatever it is they do I just don't react anymore or try my hardest not to. It's sad because I could be potentially messing up positive relationships but I'm just too afraid. It's like people TRY to find that thing that bothers you and exploit it over and over again. It's not a joke the 2nd or 3rd time anymore.
15 Mar 2016, 2:31 pm
