hi
i am recently dx with aspergers/hfa as an adult after years of difficulties. i always felt challenged but never realized other people were different. i moved around quite a bit as a child so i became adept of being a chameleon to fit in and try to make friend. these skills along with denial worked for me until i had a child with my wife and underwent some significant job stress at the same time. since then, my hfa traits have come to the surface in the typical aspergers burnout style. for the past 9 years, i have struggled with anything emotional and quickly become overwhelmed and shut down. i was treated for depression, anxiety, and adhd with little benefit. recently dx with hfa along with the aforementioned dx. at least now knowing what is going on, i have slowly improved. however i apparently love denial so much that i have struggled with the whole concept and how to integrate it. it doesnt help my best friend is completely ignoring me now and my wife thinks its and excuse vs explanation of all the odd and destructive behaviors. i accept complete responsibility for my actions but not sure how resolve the disability and what is expected of me by myself, my wife, and my family.
sorry do not really mean to complain but explain my situation as it stands. i hope to learn how to work better within this world and feel less angst about myself.
16 Aug 2016, 11:15 pm
