Hi all, Im new here.
At the moment I'm undiagionised but I think that there is a high chance that I have AS, of course thats just an opinion. Anyway I'm 21 years old and from Ireland. Im interested in Computers, Anime, Sci Fi, Books, more Computers and Movies. My dislikes are crowds of people and writing intoductory messages (which I really suck at).
Anyway I heard about AS from this book about some virus, in which a secondry character had AS. At the time I didn't really think I had AS even though I did identify with the character. To be honest I forget when I decided that I might have AS (is a really bad memory one of the symptoms?). I'd consider myself to be above average intellengence, I have a really bad memory but I'm very analtical so I recon they balance out. I generally tend to avoid eye contact with people, to the extent that I had to get 5 councilling sesions with a guidance counciller so I could go for job interviews without freaking out the person on the other side of the table. I am apperently very modest person (my CV's always suck).
I have a kinda wierd personality. I don't really have one myself mind you, so I tend to build one from the people around me. Its wierd but if one or my friends has some unusual personality trait generally I subconsiously change to encompus this trait. I don't always like the traits that I am absorbing either. That possibly dosn't sound that wierd but trust me from where I am its very annoying and a little bit scary. I can feel myself change but I can't do a think about it.
Mentally I'd put myself around 14 or 15 or before whatever age you were meant to become interested in girls at. Its wierd as kids everyone swears that they will never grow up, to me it feels like I'm the only one who kept their word.
This is really annoying I keep thinking of things that I should write about, but then I go off on big long tangets (I don't want to say tangent because I don't feel like I've left the orginal thought only that I've expanded it so that the starting point becomes irrelevent) and it would be confusing to jump into it mid-thought. I think thats why I'm so quite (did I mention I'm very quite, well I am), I am just unable to explain what I'm thinking to other people because my thoughts are like a stream, once they flow down they can never get back to the starting point. Except of course water can get back cause of evaporation so maybe its not like a stream... Of course I could think the same thought again so maybe it is...
Anyway this isn't my first time on an AS forum, but I kinda forgot the address of the other one, and besides there was someone there that told me that I definetly didn't have AS. On that note does AS have to have physical symptoms, and if so what are they? If it does then I probley dont have AS, does anyone know of a forum for people who are crazy like AS but without the physical systoms??
Oh yeah and did I say my name was John? I don't think I did so my name is John... I know I should put that at the start but, I dont know, I think that because I only thought of saying it here, thats where it belongs...
Okay bye
31 Aug 2005, 6:19 pm
