Solivagant66 wrote:
Hi guys, this is a first for me even though I have attempted many times to reach out and never gone through with it in the end. I don’t know if it’s because I’ve spent my entire life ‘dealing with it on my own’ or because I just don’t know what to say. I read that it’s easier for us to converse via forums however for me I find it terrifying as I never know what to say or how to respond, to how my response will be received, so I just don’t reach out. The problem I have, is, the older I get the more crushingly lonely I feel and I don’t have any friends. My anxiety is going through the roof just writing this and I know I’ll ruminate forever thinking about how stupid I was to post this as nobody cares and nobody understands. I know this is wrong on this forum but my life experience has taught me that people don’t get it and it’s easier for me to be lonely than it is to reach out due to the many negative experiences I’ve had. I would love to hear other people’s stories.
Welcome. I see you're in the UK. Can I ask how you went about getting a diagnosis - if you're comfortable talking about it.
I'm interested because I find myself unable to persist through the resistance of the NHS gatekeepers and unable to find the £900 necessary for a private analysis. I'd like to hear about your experience.
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