So hey, what's up?
I'm 19, I like....things. I can't get any sleep tonight, ect.
Yeah, I've not met very many people with my particular neurological situation, i figure I might as well get with "my people" sooner or later to see how I relate, or not. I've only known my little sister, who is also autistic, and a guy I went to camp with, but other than that, I haven't known very many others with autism. I also don't tell the people I know I have autism, I figured that it's not really any of their business, and I can get away with them thinking I'm quirky. I live in kansas, people in kansas aren't keen on those with autism, so I don't tell anyone . I want to move somewhere where this isn't the case, but even if I did, I still wouldn't tell anyone, my lovely little secret. The only non-relative I've elected to "come out" to is my college psychologist (he was pretty floored, since, apparently, no one's done that on him)
Lets see, I was diagnosed in the third grade. Luckily I wasn't told of anything I couldn't do and I was put in regular classes with all the other kids, so I turned out as a relatively functional guy. I took Buspar through most of middle and high school, then I kind of quit it after junior year. I recently went back on it to see if it could help me focus in college, but all it's done is make me feel unusually apathetic, so I dunno if I'm going to keep on it.
I have a job, I don't have a girlfriend, haven't had one (ever, which really sucks) I'd like to start dating, but I, what you say? "Lack the skills" to get a girlfriend. I've been looking at some pick up artist websites for some general tips, most of the stuff I can actually do (Like carry on a conversation) but there's stuff I can't do (Like, not be a doormat to people, which is my default setting)
One of the things that really pisses me off, is if someone who knows i'm autistic treats me like I'm 7 years old, because, like, they don't know what else to do. I really can't go up to them and say "Look mate, I've got fuzz on my chin and a Ford Focus, do I look like a 7 year old?" because I could never pull off the "pissed off" emotion with any confidence, also, I'm not assertive at all.
what else? I guess my screen name....It's a Character from a Douglas Coupland novel, pretty nerdy, eh?