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Hi everyone,

My real name is Tracey, 23 yrs old, a Dutch/English girl born and raised in The Netherlands. During childhood and puberty I always had the feeling that I was different. I tried to make friendships, but was always the odd one out, which resulted in bullying. What made it worse: I was very good at school, but outright terrible at PE...

When I hit puberty, I was not so much bullied anymore, more ignored... I never belonged to the popular bunch, still the odd one out. I often joked at family birthdays that "I'm a bit crazy but doctors just haven't invented the right pills for me yet".

In my 4th year I had something what I would now maybe call a burn-out... Doctors couldn't find anything physical; I surely wasn't depressed, but I just dind't have any energy in my body and the first two months I slept about 16 to 20 hours a day. As no one believed that there was something wrong, I left school and never graduated.

After that, I took on jobs and started working, more or less because I didn't know what to do with my life. I never held on to a job more than a year, most of the time not more than a couple of months.

In August 2007 I met someone whom I could identify with intellectually and I recognized a lot of the same odd traits I have. We could talk about science and philosophy until 6 a.m... He already had contact with a psychiatrist because of his ADHD, and a couple of months later he was diagnosed with Asperger's as well.

This got me informed about Autism and Asperger's and caused me to try and get a diagnosis as well.

I had some talks with a psychologist and did some tests (including the Thematic Apperception Test). This Monday (19th of May) I will receive her diagnosis...

I am feeling very nervous about Monday, to be honest I'm terrified that she'll say that I'm "completely normal", but I don't know how I'll react when she'll confirm my suspicions of Autism/Asperger's...

Sorry for the long story, I guess it's just the nerves and the need for a bit of understanding...

Thanks for reading.

Hello.
Welcome to WrongPlanet.

Hello!

Begroeten Lotusss!

Try not to worry about the DX. It seems that you've already learned a lot about yourself, and self-understanding can make life easier!

Z

remember; whatever they tell you, you're still the same person you walked into the place as. You'll just have a better way of understanding yourself.

and welcome.

To WrongPlanet!! !

Welcome to WP. I can relate all too well to your experiences in school.

welkom op wrongplanet

greetz uit Den Helder

Welcome to WP!

Hi Tracey, Welcome to WP

Hello Tracey

Welcome to WrongPlanet!

hee nog een nederlander:D

Welkom Lotusss. Hopelijk vind je hier wat je zoekt.... Ik heb in elk geval wel wat gevonden over mezelf.

About your diagnosis... it is difficult to diagnose properly. They never bothered to make my diagnosis specific enough, and criteria change with time. So one person can say you are an Aspie, another one thinks something else. So I would not be bothered too much by the results. And it looks like you have a very understanding friend.

I hope you get the results you hope for and that it will be a good step forward in your life.

Hey, I am Dutch. My last name is JANSEN.

Nice to meet you, Tracey.

Welcome Lotusss,

It's nice to have a label that explains why you're different - So I'd be more worried about not receiving one since it means that you have to continue your search.

That said, you're always going to be welcome here, aspie or otherwise.

I think pakled nailed it with...