Chuck wrote:
And Ritalin Postie. Yep - I know 'em. Don't make me use them. And their duck tape."
(I'm not sure what this threat means exactly, but perhaps obscure threats will amplify her brain fog, and she'll clean up her mess by accident.)
Yup, Ms Ritalin is a touchy one. (Actually would prefer a time release [humm, time release, that could be fun to play with
] , but not sure they have it where I get sent.) Yes she is. Ain't the fog so much, it's the fall out from the fog I had noticed on that hypo manic. Mr Lamotrigine has done wonders, both pro and con. That's the crux of most all of this anyway, weigh the pros and cons. Doctor Mars doesn't like this combo all too much and very seldom goes this way. Some real over lapping in there and things can be mistaken for others. More then a few things could come of this. Brain fog? Hell I like parts of it. It's the getting all pissed off and other emotions from getting side tracked doing really simple things that I had noticed, when they became all the more amplified on that last ride. It goes further then that little snippet. But SwampBlossom doesn't need to hear it and get the fall out from it, even though it isn't really directed at her to begin with. Not so worried about the spiraling chaotic thought pattern, well that's what others think, they will still be there, just more underlying, perhaps. It's a huge break through just to get Doc Mars anyway, she listens. I don't do this s**t lightly, been on the med route for god know how long. And was on Ms Ritalin before, some 9-10 years ago and took a ride to zombie land in a hand basket, but not because of Ms Ritalin. They just rediscovered that part, when I smacked em on the head. I told Doc Mars right from the start I'd try to control all of this, I told her no one there was, so someone had to do it. She had to re-look at my med records, bible size, to see I had been on it before, she didn't know that. Going to be interesting.
Bible size med records, HAH!! And all of the Fort Hood stuff isn't there. Got on the phone and found a guy and he's going more directed paper work to find the missing records and if they can't find them? He said he has "friends" still at Hood. Gulf War vet. I knew what he meant and he knew I did. We f*****g cheat, f**k the officers and proper channels. I still have no idea why Doc Mars wants me to go with the direct service connection, but what the hell she said the magic word, money. I don't see it, but if Doc Mars says so, who the hell am I to argue?
I mean what the f**k I paid my dues and taxes, many times over. I asked them very nicely not to draft me. Even told them I was pretty f****d up. Guess they didn't believe me. Can we say warm body? Yes I knew we could. I even offered my skills as a door gunner and they gave me 2 weeks leave time I didn't have coming. Military Intelligence at work, say one thing and they'll do the opposite, go figure. Ritalin effect I guess.