felinesaresuperior wrote:
i barely got bullied in highschool because it was a girls' school. i got bullied just walking down the street, but it didnt happen often. i got a job in mcdonald and burger king and these kind of jobs when i was in my twenties and got bullied so bad i carried a knife in my pocket. i'm a female and small. i was sexually harrassed, once by a male boss who kicked my rear end and by the other workers, one who blew up because i refused to sleep with him, and many others. i got threatened so many times if i had a dollar for every threat and every time i felt in danger, like when the other workers locked me in the restaurant because the boss told them, i would be very rich.
i took kickboxing and hammared the punching bag so hard the windows rattled. had to drop out after a year because of aspie stomach aches. which is a shame because i would love to learn krav maga. i was picked on by some guys up to a point that i took the knife out and held it to someone's throat. him and the others backed off.
i'm a peaceful person and did what i did in self defense and hoped you won't judge me for it.
I was bullied at 2 1/2 years old. I remember being hit by someone I thought was my friend. Then being bullied in elementary middle and highschool. I became very active in highschool in school programs (most all of them) as a means for release and to focus on something else. In middle school a teacher bullied me and I switched schools till highschool. The worst though was being bullied and abused verbally by my father and stepmother and my mother always worrying over my "condition" My self-esteem was shattered to fragments and I began to get myself into bully situations from an unconscious level because I thought I belonged there. I haven't worked or done anything of "what is expected of me" for little over a year. Spent all that time finding those Shikon Jewel fragments ( D (anyone get the referance : P) and putting the picture back to what I always intended it to be. I think I can I think I can I think I can and I've never stopped for anything. Felinesaresuperior you exemplify what I will create when I'm ready. A force inside me that none can bully or abuse me ever again.
There are 2 people inside me. One named Gilgamesh resides as my consciousness and to this day has never stopped championing the cause of our healing and release of bondage and fear. My true autistic self, Enkidu, is consciously unconscious. The fear was so great he went somewhere deep inside me. He comes out to be only sometimes and mostly as fragments. BUT Gilgamesh never forgot and always fought to get him back. So my healing continues. Until all fragments are recovered and the Shikon Jewel restored to its pristine and powerful beauty. Pain is no less than pleasure. Two sides of the same coin. The day will come that our rightful place in the uni-verse will be made known to us that none can deny. My thoughts and feelings out to each of your journeys.
: P
30 Jul 2011, 7:45 am
