Fanny wrote:
As much as I try, I can’t get close, I can’t love or relate to others.
Sez who? Who told you this? Don't believe everything you hear (or even tell yourself).
You just did a marvlous job of relating to those of us here. (in fact, your story mirrors mine so well that it's scary)
Can't love? By whose definition? Love is a choice, that chosen enough eventually brings feelings. Keep choosing to love those around you. You know - Love is patient, love is kind, does not envy, boast, is not proud, etc. Even tho YOU don't feel it (or feel LIKE it) they will begin to accept you actions as love.
Keep relating in the fashion you have with those who WANT to relate. And keep pushing the love out there, even if it seems wooden. And I believe someone will WANT to get close to someone who does that.