Thanks, Sanduru.
I have practised before now but the crux of the matter is I cannot talk properly most of the time. I have had situations where I just cannot talk at all and I freeze up totally. Awkward. Also, I have difficulty processing incoming information.
My main worry is letting my wife down yet again. Although she and our children support me because they are aware of my situation, most other people regard me as an idiot who can't hold a job down.
I always manage to pick myself up and start over but I feel there are a few people (Mother-in-Law and Father-in-Law, in particular) who regard me as nothing but a dropkick because they do not recognise what I have in terms of this condition.
As a consequence, I have had to go back on anti-depressants to stem the overwhelming feelings of anxiety. I really don't like taking them because they zero out my creativity and my libido.
Yet another negative post. Sorry.