Listing things is also essential for me.
I operate if I don't and I'm very distracted anyway.
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Such a late diagnosis...
Many in the forum have had it belatedly.
Some are really peaceful.
However, I understand that a person wants to try to explain themselves.
For me the diagnosis was very very stressful.
I would like to ask what it helped you with.
Nothing to me.
Before I knew what I was like.
Now the diagnosis has perhaps made my life worse.
Also because I tend to get annoyed if loved ones, despite knowing me very well, ignore my being the way I am.
They also read the diagnosis.
But it's as if this hadn't happened.
They criticize me for things that every autistic person does or does wrong.
I adapt to them (at least I try), I don't judge, I'm kind.
But Neurotypicals tend not to even want to understand the evidence, not even read it.
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This is annoying because I used to justify this: they didn't know.
Now they know the diagnosis: but nothing has changed.
I tend to always remain very calm, even if, to be honest, some attitudes bother me a lot.
And what do you think?
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