Thanks for the welcome.... It's sort of a relief knowing there's a reason I've always felt weird and had these traits, and that there are others who are in the same boat. But it's also a little depressing knowing there's no cure and that I've pissed away 32 years of my life trying to fit in. But I guess I'm no longer under any pressure to keep trying.
I've always had this weird idea that my life would somehow magically fall into place if I got the right job, moved to the right city, fell in love with the right woman, and/or find the right apartment. It's going to be a challenge to face up to the reality that this aspect of my life will always be with me.
Luckily I seem to have at least managed to find myself in the right profession: One of my early obsessive interests was architecture and construction, so my career choice came fairly naturally to me. It also helps that this business seems to be loaded with aspie types; architects almost pride themselves on being socially-dysfunctional geniuses.
I'm debating what I would gain by getting an official diagnosis, but I've read some of the horror stories on the other thread from people who tried to do so. Hopefully I can find a good specialist here in NYC.
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I've lost my faith in nihilism.
10 Jan 2008, 12:02 am
