krex wrote:
Hi Hartz,I have also suffered from invisabilty syndrome,it's an odd disorder for someone who spends half her life "Trying" to be invisible to avoid abuse and the other half,wishing to be acknowledged....welcome to the wonderful world of aspergers catch22's.
I dont have any solutions for your depression but hope you keep one thing in mind.Depression is a result of low mood(a bunch of other weird symptoms,ladeda)NOT caused by external causes.(ie,you would feel the same if you had no family crisis,won the lottory and didnt suffer from constant fatigue and pain)
What I DX as your "problem"isnt depression but "reality syndrom"a knowledge that your life is full of pain,disappointment and that most of the world is run by insane people.I believe it is common to people with AS,wage slaves and other groups of oppressed persons.
Another thing to consider....you are on some major medications that actually cause depression...pain killers,sleep aids,anti-anxiety medications are nototious for this wonderful "side-effect".
I realize this information is not going to "get rid of depression"but knowledge of why I feel as crappy as I do,at times,makes me feel a little less "crazy" because there are "reasons"(other then mental illness),that account for low mood.
Hope that helps a little?
It DID help. Thanks, Krex. I have noticed increased depression since starting on these painkillers. Its really weird, because the pain killer induces this false, la la land euphoria feeling, and underneath is reality. Kind of like drinking castor oil with fruit juice, LOL. But its always good to come to the cafe, and read the posts, event though I haven't much to say. I don't wish to spread gloom and doom, after all. Anyway, got a note from my Dad in the mail just now. It said, "Daddy loves you." Wasn't that sweet?
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