Any Spirit Filled Christian Aspies?

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I am a Christian who would be classified as "Spirit-filled." Although I feel that tongues are evidence that point to the infilling, a great gift, but not everyone has this gift. Anyways I can really appreciate your post as I have had similar problems. I use to leave service and go and breakdown and cry profusely and not know why. I would go through months of a similar trend. Usually when my stress level is high I am more affected by the sounds, lights, and people. The huggers would put me into a mini panic state and I would just get frozen and I would appear gaunchy and odd. I too feel bad and don't want to hurt anyones feelings. I could never explain to anyone cause I didn't know what was wrong with me. I have found that learning about AS and putting reasonable expectations on myself has helped. I do not force myself to socialize if I just do not have it in me to do so. I have also found others at the church who are similar (I don't know if they have AS and thats ok) and I find hanging with them a bit more comfortable for me.

Wow I have so much I want to say to this so hmmm I'll just pick a couple things--I'm a Christian-grew up in a southern Baptist church (mom works in churches), then Pres., visited many, and after college went to the International House of Prayer in KC--heard of it? Which opened my eyes to a lot, and to things I knew although NOT from church but got to meet like-minded people, although also some unbalanced rather cooky ones as well...Anyhow...I went to a mega church for a few years that was VERY loud, w/ a live band and tons of lights and your chest would vibrate from the music (still visit sometimes)..
..Before I was diagnosed, I would often questions myself (and even had a pentecostal boyfriend who questioned my Christianity b/c I would not run around during his services and go crazy to the music...but I told him I don't even do that to music I love outside of church---that was a few years ago)...but I would question my faith b/c I would feel so much anxiety and wondered if that was b/c my relationship w/ God was bad etc. Anyhow, now that I know what autism is and have been diagnosed, it ALL makes sense and is a great relief...My husband is a youth director so now I go to a smaller, more traditional church. I miss the hard hitting dynamic sermons, and the music, but the atmosphere is certainly better for me overall I suppose...but I still get "energies" and can't stop moving my legs and stuff like that.
Funny you mentioned closing your eyes--I've always felt led to that...I can FEEL it more--concentrate on it (whether prayer/sermon/music) w/ my eyes close but I don't b/c I don't want people to think I'm sleeping, esp. since my husband is the youth director and I don't want him to look bad cuz of me...politics politics I know. But that is what I worry of, so I don't, and it's much harder to focus or be intimate in service surrounded by distractions...

I'm also a believer. I don't speak in tongues, but I do believe they can be for today. As for the 'emotion' side of Christianity, I believe that different denominations go too far to one side or the other: either excluding emotion and emphasizing reason, or vice versa. I believe God is about balance, but God also is beyond many of our categories. I believe God designed each one of us to experience worship in a unique way, as unique as each of us are from the other. So some of us find beauty in logic, others in music, others in sights and sounds. But at the core, if our focus is on Him, our hearts and minds will be in the right place.