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postpaleo
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25 Oct 2007, 1:11 pm
blessedmom wrote:
postpaleo wrote:
nannarob wrote:
Cme on Postie! We wait all day for tour words of ...er wisdom.
I understand why the great ones drank a lot. All may not be lost, I've had a great deal of intoxicants in my misspent youth, which would mean it wasn't misspent at all. Now that's just logical. Hey!! I might be catching a beat to this. I'm also going to double my coffee and smoke more. That should do it.
SSSHHHHHH! Please don't say the word "smoke" around me until further notice. After a year, I just suddenly started craving them again, stronger than ever. It's just a good thing that I have 4 kids that need me to stay alive and healthy for a long time. Otherwise, I'd be outside having one right now. It always amazes me how something that smells so horrid and can do such nasty things to a body can have such a hold on a person.
Sorry 
It is one horrible horrible habit to break, that word we cannot speak. I'm still trying.
Get yourself a big rubber band and put it on around your wrist, you get the urge, snap it.
SwampBlossoms trick when she stopped. She likes endorphins, strange child. Well I do too, but not those kind.
ekoms a ragic instead, that'll fix ya.
(I'm getting mine back into peak shape, I hadn't been watching the humidity like I should have been.) {ignore that} 
25 Oct 2007, 1:25 pm
postpaleo
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25 Oct 2007, 1:32 pm
25 Oct 2007, 1:35 pm
Sapphix wrote:
Gromit wrote:
Might be primarily a case of the Aspie's Curse (link).
*giggle* No, I wasn't referring to intellectual perseverance, which is how I would describe Aspie's Curse. Was referring to emotional bullying - something quite different and not related to AS.
I agree with you, Sapphix. It seems to be more a case of total disregard for the feelings, opinions, or situation of others, and it happens on a regular basis here (not on this thread thankfully). It also happens more and more in RL as time goes on. The younger adults that work for my family have been raised with the attitude that NO ONE has the right to impede their freedom of expression and have no regard for how their behaviour and words impact those around them. And I'll go back into lurky mode now before I get a little too worked up.
25 Oct 2007, 1:40 pm
Gromit wrote:
Chuck wrote:
I was able to do 20 pull-ups today at the gym, which I haven't done in quite some time, so I just weighed myself. Quelle horreur! 
129 pounds!?!
129 pounds!?!Must we expect you to end up looking like Cohen the Barbarian?
postpaleo
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25 Oct 2007, 1:42 pm
Sapphix wrote:
Gromit wrote:
Might be primarily a case of the Aspie's Curse (link).
*giggle* No, I wasn't referring to intellectual perseverance, which is how I would describe Aspie's Curse. Was referring to emotional bullying - something quite different and not related to AS.
Yeah, unfortunately some of us come with rage issue's, no excuse, but they can get a bit demanding. Mostly I internalize it and that isn't very good either. Has a way of creeping back in, in another form and likes to freak me out in in places it isn't good. Mostly I yell at the tv or thin air, took a while for The Wife to understand it didn't really have a pointed direction, but it can do that too. Not proud of it and I try to work on it. I come with pretty thin skinned, kind of conditioned for it from past experiences. I like to eat bullys, on the other hand whiners are just as polished at their game as any bully that let anything evil out of their mouths. Both have issues and that's what we're here for. But yeah, come rest a while.
Would like a muffin?
25 Oct 2007, 1:46 pm
postpaleo wrote:
blessedmom wrote:
postpaleo wrote:
nannarob wrote:
Cme on Postie! We wait all day for tour words of ...er wisdom.
I understand why the great ones drank a lot. All may not be lost, I've had a great deal of intoxicants in my misspent youth, which would mean it wasn't misspent at all. Now that's just logical. Hey!! I might be catching a beat to this. I'm also going to double my coffee and smoke more. That should do it.
SSSHHHHHH! Please don't say the word "smoke" around me until further notice. After a year, I just suddenly started craving them again, stronger than ever. It's just a good thing that I have 4 kids that need me to stay alive and healthy for a long time. Otherwise, I'd be outside having one right now. It always amazes me how something that smells so horrid and can do such nasty things to a body can have such a hold on a person.
Sorry It is one horrible horrible habit to break, that word we cannot speak. I'm still trying.Get yourself a big rubber band and put it on around your wrist, you get the urge, snap it.
SwampBlossoms trick when she stopped. She likes endorphins, strange child. Well I do too, but not those kind.
ekoms a ragic instead, that'll fix ya.
(I'm getting mine back into peak shape, I hadn't been watching the humidity like I should have been.) {ignore that} No worries and no cigars! ICK! I know that for some reason men seem to find women who will smoke a cigar appealing, but I'll pass. I'll just file it with the other things I won't do for anyone for any reason.
25 Oct 2007, 1:49 pm
postpaleo wrote:
Sapphix wrote:
Gromit wrote:
Might be primarily a case of the Aspie's Curse (link).
*giggle* No, I wasn't referring to intellectual perseverance, which is how I would describe Aspie's Curse. Was referring to emotional bullying - something quite different and not related to AS.
Yeah, unfortunately some of us come with rage issue's, no excuse, but they can get a bit demanding. Mostly I internalize it and that isn't very good either. Has a way of creeping back in, in another form and likes to freak me out in in places it isn't good. Mostly I yell at the tv or thin air, took a while for The Wife to understand it didn't really have a pointed direction, but it can do that too. Not proud of it and I try to work on it. I come with pretty thin skinned, kind of conditioned for it from past experiences. I like to eat bullys, on the other hand whiners are just as polished at their game as any bully that let anything evil out of their mouths. Both have issues and that's what we're here for. But yeah, come rest a while.
Would like a muffin?
Ya know, one of these days I'll have to ask Swampblossom how she deals with your rage issues. That was the breaking point in my marriage, I just couldn't deal with the sudden, unprovoked blow outs any more. If I could figure out how to do that, I could fix it.
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25 Oct 2007, 2:02 pm
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25 Oct 2007, 2:09 pm
blessedmom wrote:
postpaleo wrote:
Sapphix wrote:
Gromit wrote:
Might be primarily a case of the Aspie's Curse (link).
*giggle* No, I wasn't referring to intellectual perseverance, which is how I would describe Aspie's Curse. Was referring to emotional bullying - something quite different and not related to AS.
Yeah, unfortunately some of us come with rage issue's, no excuse, but they can get a bit demanding. Mostly I internalize it and that isn't very good either. Has a way of creeping back in, in another form and likes to freak me out in in places it isn't good. Mostly I yell at the tv or thin air, took a while for The Wife to understand it didn't really have a pointed direction, but it can do that too. Not proud of it and I try to work on it. I come with pretty thin skinned, kind of conditioned for it from past experiences. I like to eat bullys, on the other hand whiners are just as polished at their game as any bully that let anything evil out of their mouths. Both have issues and that's what we're here for. But yeah, come rest a while.
Would like a muffin?
Ya know, one of these days I'll have to ask Swampblossom how she deals with your rage issues. That was the breaking point in my marriage, I just couldn't deal with the sudden, unprovoked blow outs any more. If I could figure out how to do that, I could fix it.
And you think she's here for what reason? She doesn't always deal with my rages very well. I have other wonderful habits too, like being alone, even in a crowd. Not going out, brings her down, she's very social and wants me to be by her side. It sets up things that spill over in the relationship. It helps that we both acknowledge it, but doesn't always solve things. She got more then burned on other forum sites, very negative out looks. She's a bit shy and has many many other little projects she would rather do then deal with me. Now could anybody blame her?
She doesn't read here to much but she knows you all are here and maybe in time.
25 Oct 2007, 2:15 pm
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25 Oct 2007, 2:29 pm
postpaleo
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25 Oct 2007, 2:37 pm
25 Oct 2007, 2:39 pm
blessed mom wrote:
postpolio wrote:
This is Merle's fault. She got us watching more MSNBC (TV channel here in the States). I had a really wicked night mare and was awake to see this or a little of it this morning. It was in the subtitle crawl the news stations have on sometimes. Said something to the effect that thinking positive and negative for the future, is hard wired in humans. I found that seriously interesting. I know no more about it then that. I have no idea who did the study, if it was done well, etc....... I'm thinking there might be some interesting dynamics to that observation. Now if this is really hard wired, I'm wondering what role meds are doing now and what they might in the future. Drugs mess with this stuff even if not designed to do it, it's just the nature of some of them. Feed back?
The night mares I have been having recently are really something else again, with this mornings really freaking me out and that isn't easy for a dream to do to me. I think what is happening is this. I have slept now with white noise on for many years, I still do. However lately I have gotten the courage to turn it off. I can actually sleep with out it. I don't need it to keep the thoughts to a dull roar when trying to go to sleep, due to a mood stabilizer. Old habits die hard and it is very unnerving just to turn off the tv to begin with. Anyway what has been happening is, I do think the white noise is triggering actions in the head. And these actions are intensified due to the med. It's a side effect of the med. I might try to play with this. Put something on the TV that is more soothing, I stick it on the news stations now, duh!!. I thought they debunked that old thought about sleep learning, I'm not thinking this is the same thing, but you know...I'm not so sure this couldn't be used positively.
Having said the word, positive in both of the above paragraphs, this could set up some interesting (to me) ideas. I haven't figured out if I'm a hard wired positive or a negative thinker. I see other things coming into play, possibly.
The night mares I have been having recently are really something else again, with this mornings really freaking me out and that isn't easy for a dream to do to me. I think what is happening is this. I have slept now with white noise on for many years, I still do. However lately I have gotten the courage to turn it off. I can actually sleep with out it. I don't need it to keep the thoughts to a dull roar when trying to go to sleep, due to a mood stabilizer. Old habits die hard and it is very unnerving just to turn off the tv to begin with. Anyway what has been happening is, I do think the white noise is triggering actions in the head. And these actions are intensified due to the med. It's a side effect of the med. I might try to play with this. Put something on the TV that is more soothing, I stick it on the news stations now, duh!!. I thought they debunked that old thought about sleep learning, I'm not thinking this is the same thing, but you know...I'm not so sure this couldn't be used positively.
Having said the word, positive in both of the above paragraphs, this could set up some interesting (to me) ideas. I haven't figured out if I'm a hard wired positive or a negative thinker. I see other things coming into play, possibly.
I saw that, too. And what I was reading said that they hadn't fully measured the effect that our upbringing and past experiences would have on it. It also had me pondering a little something that I have wondered for awhile... why can 2 people suffer the same kind of trauma, and have 2 completely different outcomes. I have had people that know me well ask how I can have dealt with the things in my past and my illness and still be dumb enough to have blind faith that the world is a good place, most people are decent and life is worth waking up for. My answer is that I haven't got a freakin' clue and I sometimes wonder if I'm just too stupid to know any better. It's just the way I am, and the way most of my kids are so being hardwired would explain it much better (and be less distressful) than the prospect that I just might be a moron and taught them to be that way.
That's exactly how I feel. You just said it oh so much more succinctly than I could have!
Even after my daughters death, being married to a narcissistic ex husband to be who was extremely manipulative and took advantage of my naiveness and faith in humanity.
Still...like an idiot...I believe!
I guess I still believe cause its the person I'm trying to be, and I want to know that it matters. That it matters in some infinitesimal way if your a person who's trying to do the right thing, rather than just getting to do whatever you want with no repercussions for any of your actions. and yes I have taught my children to have a positive outlook and can only hope it brings them a measure of hope and a cause for action to bring about a global change. (Do I sound like the "tree-hugger" that I am?)
Oh yeah, I quit smoking on Jan 25th (the 4th anniversy of my daughters death) with the Chantix pills. It truly was painless and I only took the pills for a month and a half cause I don't want to mess w/ my brain chemistry too much. I pretty much have learned to like myself and my brain the way it is. They work GREAT, I smoked 2 packs a day for 26 years and 3 when I was married. They still smell good and I love to smell them on people when they come into work. But it really was "The Easy Way" plus the side affect of "Vivid Dreams" was EXCELLENT!! !
PS Very first time I used the "quote button"
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25 Oct 2007, 2:43 pm
25 Oct 2007, 2:46 pm
reika wrote:
blessed mom wrote:
postpolio wrote:
This is Merle's fault. She got us watching more MSNBC (TV channel here in the States). I had a really wicked night mare and was awake to see this or a little of it this morning. It was in the subtitle crawl the news stations have on sometimes. Said something to the effect that thinking positive and negative for the future, is hard wired in humans. I found that seriously interesting. I know no more about it then that. I have no idea who did the study, if it was done well, etc....... I'm thinking there might be some interesting dynamics to that observation. Now if this is really hard wired, I'm wondering what role meds are doing now and what they might in the future. Drugs mess with this stuff even if not designed to do it, it's just the nature of some of them. Feed back?
The night mares I have been having recently are really something else again, with this mornings really freaking me out and that isn't easy for a dream to do to me. I think what is happening is this. I have slept now with white noise on for many years, I still do. However lately I have gotten the courage to turn it off. I can actually sleep with out it. I don't need it to keep the thoughts to a dull roar when trying to go to sleep, due to a mood stabilizer. Old habits die hard and it is very unnerving just to turn off the tv to begin with. Anyway what has been happening is, I do think the white noise is triggering actions in the head. And these actions are intensified due to the med. It's a side effect of the med. I might try to play with this. Put something on the TV that is more soothing, I stick it on the news stations now, duh!!. I thought they debunked that old thought about sleep learning, I'm not thinking this is the same thing, but you know...I'm not so sure this couldn't be used positively.
Having said the word, positive in both of the above paragraphs, this could set up some interesting (to me) ideas. I haven't figured out if I'm a hard wired positive or a negative thinker. I see other things coming into play, possibly.
The night mares I have been having recently are really something else again, with this mornings really freaking me out and that isn't easy for a dream to do to me. I think what is happening is this. I have slept now with white noise on for many years, I still do. However lately I have gotten the courage to turn it off. I can actually sleep with out it. I don't need it to keep the thoughts to a dull roar when trying to go to sleep, due to a mood stabilizer. Old habits die hard and it is very unnerving just to turn off the tv to begin with. Anyway what has been happening is, I do think the white noise is triggering actions in the head. And these actions are intensified due to the med. It's a side effect of the med. I might try to play with this. Put something on the TV that is more soothing, I stick it on the news stations now, duh!!. I thought they debunked that old thought about sleep learning, I'm not thinking this is the same thing, but you know...I'm not so sure this couldn't be used positively.
Having said the word, positive in both of the above paragraphs, this could set up some interesting (to me) ideas. I haven't figured out if I'm a hard wired positive or a negative thinker. I see other things coming into play, possibly.
I saw that, too. And what I was reading said that they hadn't fully measured the effect that our upbringing and past experiences would have on it. It also had me pondering a little something that I have wondered for awhile... why can 2 people suffer the same kind of trauma, and have 2 completely different outcomes. I have had people that know me well ask how I can have dealt with the things in my past and my illness and still be dumb enough to have blind faith that the world is a good place, most people are decent and life is worth waking up for. My answer is that I haven't got a freakin' clue and I sometimes wonder if I'm just too stupid to know any better. It's just the way I am, and the way most of my kids are so being hardwired would explain it much better (and be less distressful) than the prospect that I just might be a moron and taught them to be that way.
That's exactly how I feel. You just said it oh so much more succinctly than I could have!
Even after my daughters death, being married to a narcissistic ex husband to be who was extremely manipulative and took advantage of my naiveness and faith in humanity.
Still...like an idiot...I believe!
I guess I still believe cause its the person I'm trying to be, and I want to know that it matters. That it matters in some infinitesimal way if your a person who's trying to do the right thing, rather than just getting to do whatever you want with no repercussions for any of your actions. and yes I have taught my children to have a positive outlook and can only hope it brings them a measure of hope and a cause for action to bring about a global change. (Do I sound like the "tree-hugger" that I am?)
PS Very first time I used the "quote button"
You are the first person besides myself that openly admits to being a "tree-hugger". I could kiss you!
You said it the way I see it, too. The thing that I see, though is that there are so many other people who would just lie down and never get back up no matter how hard anyone else tried to get them to or how good there life could be in spite of the set back.
(And just for the record, and I don't want to disappoint Nannarob, but I do know that my soulmate is out there, he just doesn't know it yet.) My soulmate friends are also out there, and I know who they are.
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