30 Oct 2012, 4:31 pm
Here I am 
18 Sep 2014, 2:21 am
I'm an aspie who is a member of the Church of Christ. I'll admit, I've gotten into this period of my life where some of the Wednesday night Bible study groups just don't make any sense to me. Now if it's a Sunday and the lesson is being broken down, I understand it better. But, lately on Wednesday nights, the lessons have been getting a little too personal 
and I just don't know how to cope with that (for example, the lesson we just got done with tonight was on forgiveness. Well for starters, I've already told the small bible study class that I had tried to forgive my father over the phone about the unwanted sterilization back when I was 19 but that my father wouldn't accept my forgiveness nor forgive me for telling my mom's family about said procedure) instead of trying to help me like any good friend would do, What do my friends in this bible class do? Bring up the subject of forgiveness over and over again over the next two weeks! I don't need a reminder of that rejection and I most definately don't need them telling me that God will not forgive me when I tried to forgive but it didn't work.
It is not their place to make that decision! These friends of mine are what I consider 'traditional' christians (which means they would rather sing out of a hymnal or read from the big heavy Bible instead of using technology or listen to modern worship music like I do.) I on the other hand consider myself a 'modernist' (Like I mentioned previously, uses technology and worships through music instead of acapella. This is how I was raised and how I feel most comfortable.)
Another thing these young women in my bible class will do is whenever I hear someone say they heard God speaking to them one day, I miss the details because I"m an aspie I don't know what that means.
Personally, I'm thinking "How is God speaking to you when even I can't hear him?" I know it's part of being "into the spirit' but it's just weird that they think they can hear a voice and I barely get a cough. I'm not saying this to make you think I've lost faith. It's still there. It's just that I find the hear voices thing to be a little unsettling. Now I (think) have had God show me things in my dreams before (whether or not, the dreams were completely from God I don't know but some of the content in the dreams however, I just have a feeling they just might be.)
Could this be because most Aspies tend to be visual thinkers rather than people who listen for a voice? I'm so confused. 
19 Sep 2014, 2:59 am
and I just don't know how to cope with that (for example, the lesson we just got done with tonight was on forgiveness. Well for starters, I've already told the small bible study class that I had tried to forgive my father over the phone about the unwanted sterilization back when I was 19 but that my father wouldn't accept my forgiveness nor forgive me for telling my mom's family about said procedure) instead of trying to help me like any good friend would do, What do my friends in this bible class do? Bring up the subject of forgiveness over and over again over the next two weeks! I don't need a reminder of that rejection and I most definately don't need them telling me that God will not forgive me when I tried to forgive but it didn't work.It is not their place to make that decision! These friends of mine are what I consider 'traditional' christians (which means they would rather sing out of a hymnal or read from the big heavy Bible instead of using technology or listen to modern worship music like I do.) I on the other hand consider myself a 'modernist' (Like I mentioned previously, uses technology and worships through music instead of acapella. This is how I was raised and how I feel most comfortable.)
Another thing these young women in my bible class will do is whenever I hear someone say they heard God speaking to them one day, I miss the details because I"m an aspie I don't know what that means.
Personally, I'm thinking "How is God speaking to you when even I can't hear him?" I know it's part of being "into the spirit' but it's just weird that they think they can hear a voice and I barely get a cough. I'm not saying this to make you think I've lost faith. It's still there. It's just that I find the hear voices thing to be a little unsettling. Now I (think) have had God show me things in my dreams before (whether or not, the dreams were completely from God I don't know but some of the content in the dreams however, I just have a feeling they just might be.)
Could this be because most Aspies tend to be visual thinkers rather than people who listen for a voice? I'm so confused.
When I "hear" God speaking to me, it is more like an electronic signal, silent. But suddenly I know things of truth and wisdom, and things click into place in my head. God's voice is silent and sometimes hard to notice. It's like God's voice is windshield wipers- I notice suddenly that I see something more clearly, and such a realization that He brings always brings me happiness, because the things I learn make so much sense and are good, make me feel good in experience. Not so much a physical sensation as like the resolution to a story, sort of. Sometimes I only get pieces, and have gaps for quite a while until eventually things make sense. I know that if something still feels amiss in my heart that I do not have all the pieces yet. Also on the occasion that I am not sure about something I challenge my understanding. Is this Love? Is this good for myself and those around me?
To kind of answer the original question on this thread- I am a non-denominational, non traditional Christian. My relationship with Christ is just that... God teaches me directly. He uses the world around me to teach me about myself and others, and about the beauty of living with Love. The way each person connects with God is special, it won't exactly have to be the same- is my understanding. He has made us, and He knows how to reach us, when we eventually are open to it. Sometimes it takes a while for him to "unbog" our receptors or learn how He will speak to us uniquely, as He works on us continually. Some people need to use the Bible directly to come to realization as a focal point, some people as myself who have the bible known (I've read it numerous times and can honestly tell someone if something is or isn't in there) and sort of glued to them now learn from life's experiences. Jesus is the greatest storyteller. If you're not sure if God is telling you something, at the very least HE understands you, it is good to question and question and pray and ask Him to show you until you feel confident.
I'd say if you feel estranged from communication just pray sincerely to God and ask Him to help you communicate or learn from Him more noticeably (if you haven't already), and don't be discouraged if it takes a while. Some of my prayers took an awfully long time to be answered, but that's just because of the way my life panned out and how long it took for Him to work out those specific "kinks".
19 Sep 2014, 6:44 am
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05 Oct 2014, 1:38 am
Yep. Catholic theologian aspie here.
(I'm new to this "aspie" thing. Is it just me or does it sound like a dog breed?)
I used to wander the blacktop during recess as a kid, by myself, talking to God. I'm sure that looked weird to the people around me, but I was content. Then I stopped caring about my faith. Then I got a gift full of Catholic trivia. What a way to get my interest! I read that studiously, then turned to other theology books, then got a degree in theology.
Then I tried teaching theology. Bad move. I'm a web designer now, but for a Catholic firm, so I still get to use my theology.
sunshinescj
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11 Oct 2014, 11:45 am
14 year old apostolic Christian aspie here. I've been looking for a forum like this on WP recently and was led here. God is good! 
11 Oct 2014, 4:42 pm
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19 Oct 2014, 7:39 am
I'm one.
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