New, Possible Aspie, Yeah

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So, i definitely fit the DSM criteria for Aspergers Syndrome and have been thinking for awhile that i probably have it. I've talked to my therapist about it, and she pretty much agrees. I should probably get tested or something. I took some psychological test-y thing awhile back when i went to these "vocational rehabilitation" people to try to find a job, and they didn't say anything about aspergers(or much else, really) afterward.. And none of my other therapists ever said i had it. One when i was about 13 brought it up, but then ruled it out for some reason she didn't explain to me. I'm really horrible at answering questions about myself, especially the sorts they ask to try to determine this stuff("Do you pay more attention to whole things or parts of things?" I don't know. What sorts of things? In what situation?) I've taken that online "Aspie Quiz" and it says i probably have it too. And there has to be some reason that i have always been completely clueless about social interactions. I never know what to say, and have always had a hard time making friends. And even when i do stumble upon a friendship, it's always just an individual... i never fit into a group. Through middle school i had intense social anxiety, so we all thought that stuff was just anxiety related. Nowadays, though, i am often very outspoken, but i still don't seem to be able to figure out exactly how the friend thing works. I have alays wanted friends a lot, though. Annnnnnnndddddd, i have always had obsessive interests. I also do a lot of "stimming". As i write this, i'm rocking forward and backward, and i didn't really realize i was doing it until i started writing that part about stimming just there... haha. Also bounce my leg up and down sometimes, tap my fingers on things, pick at my skin, lots of things. I have problems with eye contact, and people have ALWAYS made comments about my usual lack of facial expression. In elementary school people would ask "what's wrong?" and i'd say "nothing" and they'd ask why i wasn't smiling. It just doesn't seem natural for me to smile unless i'm joking around or hear something funny. I also don't like for people to touch me, get too close to me, give me hugs, or things like that. My mom always comments about how robotic i feel when she gives me a hug. The things i don't match, though, are having a lack of empathy or being physically clumsy. I don't read peoples' emotions all that well, at least not in the way that most other people seem to, but i do care about other people a lot. If someone makes it obviously that they're upset about something, i want to help them, and i do feel bad for them, but i'm not usually sure what to say, so i get uncomfortable with the situation. And i've always been physically coordinated enough. Learned to ride a bike and all that fun childhood stuff. My only physical issues are that i absent-mindedly walk into things a lot, but i think that has more to do with awareness than the motor skills problems people talk about. I am often nervous about where to put my hands, don't know what to do with them when i'm walking a lot of the time, or i'll think too much about the movements i'm making(like walking) and think that i don't know if i'm moving right, or something(hard to explain). I also don't invade peoples' space like a lot of people list as an aspie trait, because, again, i kind of like for there to be a good amount of space between others and myself. I also can't think of any routines i adhere to... I don't like for things i've been planning on to be disrupted, but i don't really have much of a day-to-day routine(i don't even have a wake/sleep schedule really...). I think i might be too unorganized to actually plan out a day-to-day routine.. you should see my school stuff, CHAOS. But i've heard being unorganized is an aspie trait too. Hmm.... Anyway, i just joined here so maybe i can get more info on Aspergers and stuff, because it seems to me like i most likely have it. So, uh, HI!

My "aspie score" was 143 Aspie and 47 NT, by the way. Was gonna post the chart, but can't.

Don't sweat it. Most of us know what they look like. For next time, though, that little landscape icon at the top of the box helps put images into a post.

And, get used to it. Even without the test scores, that detailed an interest in whether or not you're aspie is a pretty string indicator.

Welcome aboard

Hello, and welcome to the Wrong Planet community, ColdBlooded.

Hello.

Welcome to the Wrong Planet!

Welcome to WP!

in the same boat friend have my GP dianosis on monday which if goes well goes to a psychologist, it certainly sounds to me like you have it btw my score was 197 out of 200 So I know for certain I have it. never rule out aspies especially at thirteen may I ask how long and by the way what country are you in because in the UK the condition was certified in only 1998 and many innocents escaped the system, I fell through the dyslexia and dyphraxia net and its very annoying. You should be diagnosed especiall just to find out so you can determine your strengths and weaknesses

Hello
I'm in same boat... if my 8 yr old didn't show such strong signs i may have never known that i have this condition myself and for the first time in 31 years i feel like i can finally relax a little... I'm glad to have found a sight where i can learn more and find more ways to be comfortable about my life... thanks

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I too am self diagnosed and came to my conclusions after much research and soul searching....

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Yes I am self diagnosed. My first "official" diagnosis was when I was three or four years old.
My foster parents thought I was mentally ret*d. I was either mute or hardly spoke at all,
and it took them almost four years to toilet train me. The doctors thought I was brain damaged
because of poor motor coordination and I was slow in learning new things. I always wanted
(and still do) to be off by myself. Later I went through two other foster homes. Social Services
were trying to have me placed in Willowbrook State School on Staten Island, NY. This was in the
1960s. That institution was eventually shut down because of the terrible abuses going on in there.
For more info on Willowbrook go to http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Willowbrook_State_School. Fortunately
I was never sent there. My diagnosis was "upgraded" to "Minimal Brain Damage" then later my
I.Q. tested to be 120 or greater depending on the test given or the test conditions. My guardians
kept sending me to one Freudian von Shrinkendork after another trying to find why I "tick but don't
tock, or tock but don't tick". I kept forgetting what I was told to do, had a hard time understanding
people, I did very poorly in school, but I did manage to graduate high school on time. Not many
foster kids got their H.S. diplomas back in the 1970s. And yes I was bullied, and picked on a lot.
I survived. I learned electronics and worked in that field for more than 20 years.
Today I am not working in electronics, I work on a loading dock at a factory that makes windows
for schools, and residential complexes, and other institutional buildings.
As for my condition; I can't stand loud percussive noises, being touched, and sudden or abrupt
changes in my routine. I seem to be here, but my mind or parts thereof are in a different universe.
My left brain could be thinking about the Quadratic Prime Series, at the same time my right brain is thinking about Pentominoes.
Autism is called a spectrum condition because we have different "mental colors, notes, or wavelengths."
I call myself an Autie, I may have some, but not all, characteristics in common with Aspies.