18 Jul 2009, 11:05 pm
Hi... I'm a lurker... and I'm posting because I've had a few drinks and I'm bored... that moment of brutal honesty out of the way...
I'm an undiagnosed aspie w/ diagnosed ADHD.... but I'm a high functioning... its an incredibly frustrating combination as I'm a friendly affable sweet kid (at 27 if you can still call that a kid 
) who can be real shy. I have this push-pull with attention and accomplishment... I strive to be good at whatever I do (so long as i care enough) but I have trouble when I end up receiving the related attention... but I do want that acknowledgment.
Right now I'm ending the most traumatic phase of my life... the PhD... being on the hook for work 24/7 sucks. I could go on awhile about that but I'd rather not... it hasn't been what I expected... so lets ignore that. Either case I'm entering the real world and I'm on the precipice of probably most of what I've aspired to... except for the fuller realization that I'm highly likely an aspie and as a result I wont be able to melt away my social issues through practice. I plan on working on a lot of things... you tend to daydream a lot when making little money doing a doctorate... so I've got a long list... but I'm going to have to learn to cope with being an aspie... which is why I've been lurking around here the last couple of months.
What do I know... I know I'm a really shy and awkward good "kid"... when I'm in a good mood I can be really cheery and absolutely dynamic. I don't go through any of these "shut down" phases I hear about but i can go into "hyperfocusing" phases from time to time... recently I've been going through a ton of dissertation and life stress so I have been escaping a bit more via stupid games on the internet.
I could probably go deeper about myself. I can be probably one of the best people you'd meet but I'm not there... all the people I like aren't here so I'm incredibly frustrated from day to day... things haven't been going the way I expected them to... but I'm hoping they will once i hit the real world and settle into my job... 'cause I KNOW I'm an awesome guy... I just haven't been able to show it yet. 
Anyways... my life's goal now (or more accurately, in 5 weeks) is to figure out all the quirks and figure out how to go out and live an awesome life because (naively) I figure I'm set at this point... I know how my industry behaves and I know I'm talented enough to lead a great future... as soon as I figure out myself. That's the frustrating part of course.
--Pat
18 Jul 2009, 11:23 pm
richie
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19 Jul 2009, 11:52 am
To WrongPlanet!! !
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