seraphic wrote:
ive been reading alot about it and like i said i have some attributes that i can personally see fitting and not others, but smth is going on so that is why im wanting to know how to go bout getting a clear diagnosis
Curiously, you may find that some of the things you think now don't really apply to you, will flash on you later in epiphany moments when you realize "oh, wow, I
do do that - I just never realized that's what it was."
For instance, when I first read the phrase "may see lights or hear sounds that others do not" I thought that meant hallucinations. Later I recalled a time when I referenced a very high-pitched squealing noise that old vacuum-tube televisions used to make to a roomful of people and got a roomful of blank stares in return. An electronics buff friend who happened to be there explained what it was and that it was supposedly one of those ultrasonic noises only dogs can hear. I was so used to it growing up, it never even occurred to me that others couldn't hear it.
Though I knew right away when I read about stims that it very much applied to me, I rock and sway pretty much constantly, I didn't identify with hand-flapping. I knew a kid in junior high who did it a lot and I always thought it looked very goofy (like my rocking and swaying didn't look odd to everybody else). Later I realized that when I'm walking through crowded places, I hold my keys in my right hand and flip my wrist up and down so they click together - in a classic hand-flapping gesture.