Geremy, new here.

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Hi, I'm new!

I'm not officially diagnosed, but, I've always been undefinably and categorically different from everyone I've met. In many aspects, and in countless cicumstances it's been evident. I semi-recently discovered the term Asperger's, and found a loose discription. I pondered the possibility, as I have always pondered the possibilty of autism. But did not think my "symptoms" where ever severe enough for it to actually fit autism.

Then a couple months ago I stumbled upon a thorough Asperger's book, while perusing a local bookstore. I started reading, and several hours passed. I even wept, right in public, I don't know why. I couldn't accept it for a little while, denial of sorts. But, I found my answer, the one that has plagued me from my earliest recollection. But, if pressed, I believe I also have ADD and and anxiety disordy. And have gone in and out of depression repeatedly.

I guess you can say, I've become a very good actor, through percieved necessity. I have always conciously acted like "normal" when around people so as to coexist peacefully. A process that is unendurably mentally draining. Even still, I felt like a fake, sometimes not understanding who I am, and when I married, felt compelled to not act so much around my wife. That ended poorly. I understand it, vaguely. Something silly like wanting to be liked for me, or some nonsense.

My son is showing early signs of Asperger's as well, for him I intend to seek guidance and support of some sort. He is the source of my interest in answers. I want him to not go through life not understanding why and how he is different from everyone else he knows. And to attempt to learn the various strategies to develop upon some of the natural weaknesses that come along with the syndrom.

That's my little tidbit of a story.

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Hello, welcome here. I hope you like it here.

Hi, GeremyB. Welcome home.

Welcome to WP!

Welcome to the Wrong Planet neighborhood, GeremyB.

To WrongPlanet!! !

In the land of the NTs I learned how to act the act, talk the talk, and walk the walk, but it is just that: an act.

Thank you for the welcome.

On another note, I think I've decided to seek a diagnosis. While I am certain that it is Asperger at this point, I have done some extensive research over the past two weeks, I find it difficult to say I have it with conviction. And being an "undiagnosed aspie" to me is akin to being potential fake....and I've felt like a fake all my life at trying to be normal.....I've decided to discuss it with my parents as well, and while my mother is genuinely supportive and encouraging, my father got angry. I think it was in response to my mentioning it seems to be likely that it is a genetically related condition though, and he was getting deffensive?

Anyway, I've contacted a few psychologists in my area, and none of them as of yet have any familiarity with AS.

Any recommendations?

Welcome. I'm also new here and am finding the info and people very helpful!