Hi, everyone.
I've been lurking on the forums for a while now and finaly decided to register.
I'm a 19 year old girl who has been diagnosed with AS a long time ago.
Still I'm not sure if I really have it. I mean I know I'm not like the others but I do consider myself to be normal. Oo
I am extremely shy though, even on the internet. I don't really talk to others irl and being around people makes me nervous.
I can't even make eye contact without feeling uncomfortable. I always have to force myself.
Because of this I don't have many friends, and I don't even trust the ones I have.
I know it's kinda sad but I'd rather be lonely then being hurt again.
Now that I'm an adult I'm beginning to wonder if the diagnosis was true after all.
I know it's weird I consider myself normal because my behaviour proves different.
I always tried to change myself and it did work on some occasions but whenever something bad happened I changed back to my old self.
Not so long ago the only friends I ever trusted dumped me and now it's as if nothing ever changed.
I really wish I could learn some social skills but I guess I just can't.
