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I'm 34 years old, male, and just now wondering if I may indeed have aspergers. I've always been at odds with groups of people. I rarely look people in the eye, It feels bad. I have always dismissed it as shyness or weakness until now. I can remember being very young and staring at an overweight woman in the eye, and her glaring back at me, I didn't like it, and felt guilty for looking at her, it may have been when I stopped looking at people in the eye. I'm looking back at my childhood and remembering the hell of being in preschool, then kindergarten. I remember feeling "culture shock", and never getting past it. I remember chaos, I could not make any sense of what was going on around me, it was alot of movement of kids with no rhyme or reason, I felt lonelyness and isolation, and fear. I think I learned to mimick what was expected to be normal behavior and responses to questions from others, and as time passed was able to do a reasonable facsimilie and fit in. I really do pretty well for the most part until something stirs feeling in me, like meeting an attractive woman, and realizing that I would like to date her, then things go all to hell as they say. I've been in semi-relationships, but have difficulty in connecting in real time. I can internalize the feeling of intimacy with them, but not connect with them in reality. It makes me want to scream out at them that I am here, and am just flipping short of being able to reach them.

At any rate, I'm here, it feels good to be heard, and I wish this bastich had spellcheck.

Welcome to WP. Hope the culture here is more familiar.

Note: Few here care about perfect spelling, but if you can run Firefox, you get a spell-checker built in.

Pleased to meet you, john_l. Welcome to the Wrong Planet.

Welcome to WP!

Greetings and welcome.

To WrongPlanet!! !

Welcome John. Actually Mozilla Firefox browser comes with spell check.

Nice meeting you, John!