Hello board, this for obvious reasons is my first post, and what better place to say a few words about myself.
I recently stumbled upon the words Asperger Syndrome and did not know the meaning, one google search later, a wikipedia read, and a realization that I may or may not have this, as I have never been diagnosed as I am 27 years old. I kept reading the symptoms and many of them were right on target while other ones, seemed to not fit.
My AS seems to come in waves as I have learned to deal with many of the symptoms due to my military background. I learned that when I joined the military I was quite different, but thought that it was a simple lack of common sense, due to me being book smart and generally very intelligent, needless to say I was dumb when it came to many things, I learned very quickly many of the skills I needed to interact in a teamwork environment, I was an infantry soldier, and teamwork is essential in accomplishing the mission.
I am the guy that has all the useless information in the group, or the answer to most peoples questions, as I seem to collect facts and information in my repotoire of knowledge. When I was young I spend most of my time correcting peoples use of dictionary words, and usage. I did not see others reactions until I grew up a little , and realized it was rude to do it all the time.
I also just thought that I was a loner due to that just being the way I am, or the result of environmental influences of growing up in a broken home, many of my syptoms I believed were caused by the outside of influence of events happening in ones life. I still believe many of those things shape our beliefs and reactions to many things, but now I reallize it is actually shared with some of the AS .
What I mean by my symptoms coming in waves is: At times the symptoms are more pronounced than at other times, sometimes I interact socially with absolutely no awkwardness at all even with a decent sense of humor and communication, at other times it hits me and there is awkwardness where I just feel uncomfortable.
Relationship wise: Here is the tricky part: I have had many good relationships that seem to go awry due to one reason or another. However I have had good interaction and relationships, my main thing in a relationship is topics and general things to talk about, only in waves though, I sometimes have a good sense of humor in relationships as well. I am here for help with the community, because I now have a fiance, that loves me so much , and I know I love her, but I feel my indifference and lack of empathy in many situations will cause problems. On top of that she is pregnant and I want things to be better.
Also I feel that many of these things that just through the realization and acceptance of these deficits that they can be remedied to an extent. I brought up AS to her and told her I experience light syptoms which is not entirely true all the time, she agrees with some of the symptoms though.
Alright I guess I have a lot to talk about that can be saved for many more specific topic sections than just the introduction, but I guess that is another one of my things, I give a lot of information on things that I want to get out, and other times not enough information.
Last edited by langdon_82 on 20 Sep 2009, 5:22 pm, edited 2 times in total.
20 Sep 2009, 5:04 pm
