Hi! I'm new here. I'm an aspie.
I also haVe two half brothers with autism.
Life's always been a struggle, but I'm a pretty upbeat person.
People who "don't get it" or say "You're weird" can go to Hell!
I'm very comfortable with myself, I wasn't always, and I don't have a ton of support, but my life doesn't revolve around pleasing others.
When I was a kid I'd cry and panic for no reason.
I'd lay awake at night crying aNd worried.
I wasn't scared of the dark or anything like that, I was just anxious....
My Mom was quite cruel about it, and told me to "grow up" (still does sometimes and I'm 22)
My Dad tried to console me and calm me down, but it never worked, no one could convince me that everything would be alright.
It's not until my half-brothers were diagnosed with autism years later, my Mom finally educated herself about mental "Illness"
As a child I was sheltered to the point of redundance and home-schooled, yet neglected.
All I could do to get along around people my age (in the rare instances that I would find myself amongst them) was make up stories, or just quote facts, or films, or books.
I didn't have any way of understanding what they were interested in.
I couldn't relate.
I still caN't!
I'm 22 years old, recently graduated haIr design school, and all any of the other students wanted to talk about was each other...behind each others' backs I might add.
I am not a political person.
I love art, science, music, math, and books.
You caN't hold an intelligent conversation with "normals"
They just want to spew on about boring b.s.
"I don't get it" and "Your weird" are the most creative things normals ever say....like a broken record.
I have good friends who love me the way I am.
I live with my quirky and patient boyfriend and our sweet basset hound "LeRoi"
I get over-whelmed easily, aNd those two are always there to remind me that it's not my fault, or anyone else's.
I'm just different.