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Honestly, I sort of joined here in anger at my mother for telling me in an argument she got a letter about how people are suggesting to a doctor that I have aspergers. I hate myself for thinking it, but they're probably right, at least in part. My mum won't get me diagnosed with anything even though she seems almost certain this is what is 'wrong' with me (yeah, she's one to always look for ways of 'fixing' people).

But what is 'wrong' with me anyway? I've never had a friend. Even as a little kid, I never had any friends. People just naturally avoided me and I don't know what I do to scare them off. I don't think I act weird, but apparently I must do or they'd want to talk to me. I even feel scared about the idea of talking to people - even people I know - because I know people think I'm odd. That, and, according to my mum, I have a severe lack of social skills. I still don't get what she means by that. I do try and talk to people. I just get paranoid about what they think of me, because I honestly can't tell by how they react.

What else? Apparently I don't have 'normal' interests. Instead of fashion and makeup and boys and giggling about stupid trivial things, I prefer things like video games and science and philosophy. To an extent, it bugs me when I'm in class at my school/sixth form and other people aren't interested in it, even though they chose to be there. This is probably a reason why I especially hate talking about myself, because I know people will think I'm weird for not having stereotypical/normal interests. I always got good grades in school though - often without even trying.

I don't think I said yet, but my name's Chaz and I'm 17. My mum thinks my brother has this too, and I can see the traits in him as well as myself.

Hi, welcome to WP. There are many so-called "weird" people (according to "normal" standards) out here. I am into philosophy too and was even more when I was in high school. Btw, why do you hat eyourself for thinking you have AS? I remember when I was your age being involved in AS stuff, too (WP didn't exist but othe ronlien places did) and my parents wouldn't believe me, which is the reason I eventually left (only to be formally diagnosed three years later, in totally different circumstances). I hope you will feel welcome here.

Welcome to WP!

Hi Thorndrop,

It may be because you are just starting to get into grasps with having Asperger's. In my case, it was like a lightbulb went on.

There IS a reason why everyone acts differently than me; why I always felt like I was an alien in this world; why I had to work so hard to understand and do things others took for granted.

My favorite story when I was a child was the one with the ugly duckling. He was raised by a family of ducks, but was actually a swan (a totally different animal). I remember crying every time when I get to the end, when the poor ugly duck who got picked on and teased finally found his family of swans. I wished my story had a happy ending too.

I always used to say, "I can't believe that life is so hard for everyone in this world! If that is the case, how can the world even function?" Well... turns out, as I suspected, not everyone overthinks their visit to the washroom, or how many seconds they should look at people in the eye, or when to smile. Life IS easier for them. And that is the sad part.

The good part is, there are literally thousands of people just like me out there, who love the same things as I do, or at least have passions and interests about strange subjects, or who love animals more than people, and who are basically "weird" to the normal people. They won't use sarcasm to hurt me, they won't be unclear when speaking, or lie all the time.

It's a huge swan family.

I, for one, can't wait to meet all of them.

Pleased to meet you, Chaz. Welcome aboard the Wrong Planet.

Welcome to WP Chaz.