Thanks for the advice! Since I'm rather poor right now, I think I'll wait a while before I go to a psycologist Maybe I could just decribe a few of my symptoms here...
1. Since I was a child, I've been very sensitive to audio and visual stimulus, especially audio. Loud noises would cause me to go into a crying rage when I was little, and sudden loud noises still set me off, though I've gotten better at controling my reactions. I was also born with "Perfect Pitch" and amused my parents my parents at age three by lining up sea shells in order of pitch on the fireplace and playing "tunes". Visually, certain things can send me into extasy, like the desert for example, and I'm always interested in patterns, shapes, etc. In fact, looking out the window right now, I'm so much more interested and fascinated by the slight breeze blowing the leaves on the trees outside than the damn golf game that's on TV right now. I love going to the desert, exploring and looking for patterns, scenes, etc. which you can see in my photography at http://www.animalu.com/pics/photos.htm
2. I've always and still had a HUGE fasination with maps, aerial photos, satellite imagery, etc. I could look at and study cloud patterns for hours (if I only had the time...) Google Earth for me is like a dream come true. It's nonstop facination zooming in and moving to different locations. I simply can't get enough of it. Luckly I do have SOME self control
3. Eye contact is a big issue. I'm never more uncomfortable as I am when sitting around a table facing people and talking to them. I just want to get up and run away. The intensity of this feeling seems to vary and can be quite unpredictable. At times, depending on the person I'm with, it's tolerable, but at other times it's a downright crazy feeling. I simply need to get away from people at times. On one ocassion, I traveled to Japan for two weeks with a friend and his brother. I get along with them very well, but having them in the hotel room with me at night kept me totally awake. I had to REALLY train my mind to be able to relax, and after three almost sleepless nights, I finally found some peace. Travelling on the trains in Japan really helped as scenery moving by very quickly is for me the equivalent of getting a brain massage...
4. I've always felt very awkward in crowds and meeting people for the first time. I often feel as if I'm being stared at. Parties and bars can be torture, and I'm always thankful when the music is so loud that general conversation is impossible I tend to say silly things when meeting people for the first time, but luckly I'm good at making jokes about myself to soften the blow...
5. When I was smaller, I had very strange routines and habbits. Few found out or knew about them because I knew they were a little strange and I was able to control them when others were around. One such habbit was that if I was walking along and my arm brushed up against something, I felt that I had to do the same thing with the other arm. (Luckly if I acidentally brushed up against a person, I was smart enough to forget about the other arm...) But it went further than that. Once I brushed with the other arm, I felt I would need to reverse the process, to form a symetry, brushing with the second arm and then again with the first. Then of course the entire four brushes could be reversted, etc, and so on. Luckly, I grew out of this one, but there are times when I still do the first and second brush...
There's more, but I don't want to bore you! Any opinions?
Thanks so much,
Jeff