Do I Have Asp. ???? ???????? ???????????

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1) I think everyone else is nuts. (Holly drama)
2) I'm not hypersensitive(only in my head) I'm actually hyposensitive (don't hurt, no really don't get hurt)
3) Am completely aware of everything around me(totally drives me nus) but can totally ignore it because I'm doing something else.
4) I feel like everybody else is just standing still.
5)I fell like no one can actually just be still (not lazy, just still aka. good conversation, reading, art, grow something, be happy)
6) I feel like I live 99% of my life in my head and I'm pretty sure that's not a good thing.
7) I feel like the more I have it together the more I feel totally disjointed from everyone else.
It takes my whole concentration to get all this done. Wake up, work out, wake the house up, get ready, move out, go to work come home do home work , play with kids, make dinner, go to school, come home, look at dishes, say f**k that, go to bed.
9) I like my life full of things because then I'm happy w/o having to think about all the things I really suck at.

Welcome to WrongPlanet and welcome to my time warp.

Based only on your description I would reach a different conclusion. It would be irresponsible for me say what it is because I am not a doctor.

Regarding Asperger's, you don't appear to describe:

(1) Qualitative impairment in social interaction;
(2) Restricted repetitive & stereotyped patterns of behavior, interests and activities; or
(3) Clinically significant impairments in social, occupational, or other important areas of functioning

I, too, am no doctor, but the second part of this statement would indicate to me you are probably not a human being with Asperger's Syndrome.

Hi luvmybaby,

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Welcome aboard the Wrong Planet, luvmybaby.

From the description you give, you sound like the polar opposite of someone with AS.

I tend to agree with everyone else, that your descriptions are sort of fuzzy, if you're describing Aspergers Syndrome. But part of the joys of A.S., is not properly verbalizing things, broken communication skills. I don't understand the meaning of "Holly drama"...
but for sake of argument, yes, sometimes I have spent days, weeks, months, years, "People watching" and have came to the conclusion people are generally insane... e.g., the problem with "Groupthink" and they cannot stand on their own for a truth. I find some of the studies amusing, i.e., studying Psychology in college we learned of one such psychological experiment. How the first group of volunteers were instructed to trick the second group of volunteers. The second group were unaware they were being observed. Sticks were placed side by side, and all of them were obviously different sizes, but swore they were the same length (that read was back in 1996... I may have forgotten some of the details). None the less, when the first group openly, boldly LIED about what could be seen with their own eyes, the second group all agreed they were seeing the same thing as the first.
This phenomena is called Groupthink, and it annoys an Aspergers person.
An Aspergers person is the one in the crowd will say "Y'all are crazy. The sticks are the same length." at the risk of being "rude" and "insensitive"... and obsessing over what is literally true, seen with one's own eyes. If they continue to lie, then a potential meltdown might follow.

“Even if you are a minority of one, the truth is the truth.”
- Mahatma Gandhi

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I've been told I'm hypersensitive to some things. Things I don't like or if my opinion isn't taken seriously enough. I would have to say I am hyposensitive, but depending on the circumstances.
From my understanding, Aspergers Syndrome people have difficulty in processing and balancing emotions... and sometimes may appear to ignore a catastrophe or over-react, sometimes with indifference, or hypersensitivity (though A.S. are fully aware of what is going on around them), other times, something small, mundane and seemingly unimportant may trigger a meltdown. (i.e., being lied to, a perceived personal injustice, change in routine, cancelled event, etc).

An Aspergers person does not have the "flexible thinking" neurotypicals seem to excel at, which includes the ability to rationalize absurdity.

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Do you mean because you're focused and asorbed in personal interests?



You'll need to further emphasize your meaning. But I could say this, only in terms that, I am busy in my life at times contacting scientists, identifying local species I've photographed and other interests that I have, which have _A PURPOSE_ for education... and the people around me, do nothing purposeful with their lives. All they seem to understand / comprehend is their neurotypical lives, eat, work, sleep, eat work, sleep, go to church, eat, sleep, discuss biscuits, butter beans and hog jowls .... and it annoys an Aspergers person.

Everybody else is standing still ??? how did you mean this??



I can only say that as an Aspergers person, I _can_ be still. That is, for hours on end, focused on some topic of interest... i.e., when I first got my microscope, I would spend days looking at things under the lens to identify them. I worked with the digital camera until I learned to proficiently make videos and photos of Amoebas and Paramecium and other wicked critters under the lens. I would sit still, for hours... sun up to sun down... I admit, I ignored some things going on around me... but my life is certainly not dull.

You give examples, "good conversation, reading, art, grow something... (and) be happy."
I am not certain of your meaning, but yes, on dating sites in the past, I get very annoyed, because I read profiles of people sky-diving, swimming with sharks, going out to nightclubs, socializing this and socializing that... and it annoys THIS Aspergers person.

I would rather (if on a date) have simple conversation, appreciated that I like to have alone-time reading, art, (actually I am interested in botany - the study of plants) so growing something... yes, any of these things, a good match would appreciate my tendency to prefer being a loner and the things a person does by themselves, living more in isolation.

Love my bookshelf!! ! My books, microscope, photography... are all part of the package deal.



Again, I'm not certain of your meaning. In my case, because of broken communication skills, I have wanted to have friends, and be accepted so much, down deep... I've wanted to be "normal," but never was and probably never will be. I've thought about what it would be like to have a successful, well adjusted life at this, that or the other... what its like to have a normal family... but it will never be... I've thought about what it would be like if I focused all my time and energy into one interest and worked toward being an Oceanographer, or some of the things others said I should do with my life... but, in the end I end back up behind four walls, alone.

But you will have to explain your distinct meaning.



When I was attending college, and channelling my Aspergers energy into studies of Aquaculture, I was told by the instructors, "At the rate you're going, if you keep at it, you'll go places." But I looked around at people with boyfriends, and family, and... I knew all I had facing me at home, was four walls.



Do you mean, it annoys you, feeling you have no time for yourself and you need escape from some of it and to destress? I think Aspergers and Neurotypicals and all people struggle with life.

If I have an appointment coming up on a Wednesday... I spend the weekend Aspergering about "Appointment at 3 pm on Wednesday. ... Appointment at 3 pm on Wednesday. ...Appointment at 3 pm on Wednesday. ..." If its a stressful appointment, then I will not feel good the entire weekend and first two days of the week, until the **** appointment is met, and behind me.
If it is an enjoyable appointment or event, I will Asperger over the event until it arrives and other things sort of take second stage to whatever I'm obsessing over.
Appointments and things I must do, worry and stress me out and suck my energy down a hole, which is not good. I suppose it is a negative aspect of A.S.



I don't understand what you mean. Please elaborate on your meaning.
Aspergers persons will normally have a narrow list of interests and minimize their life to avoid distractions. I don't worry about the things I can't do well, because I'm so cock-fired sure of myself in the things I can do.
Gary Numan (Aspergers Syndrome, artist/musician "Cars" 1979) described himself as seeming "Arrogant" to people, though he undoubtedly didn't intend to be that way. Aspergers Syndrome can lead to entirely wrong conclusions.

People don't know me at all, they only know the reactions they brought out in me, to respond to their idiocracy, their accusations, their attempts to live my life for me.... I just want to be left alone to be myself. And if I can find just one close friend, who can see the real me, the good things I am, and accept me like I am.. I'd consider myself the luckiest person in the world.

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Welcome to WP!

well, did we ever find out what "Holly drama" was?

Merle

Maybe she meant "Holy Drama" ???

I can't be certain. Though I know when I come across the dumb*** people of the world (95% of neurotypicals) with their illogical lives and absurdity... I sometimes do make a fuss about what stupid, ignorant morons people are. Around the south its especially annoying. Seems they have butterbeans for brains and all they care about or understand (the depth of their soul and intellect) revolves around the next meal.
You know, this is a dangerous fact about neurotypicals that demagogues like Hitler acknowledged. If bellies are filled, people are not reactionary, but when the bellies go hungry, people will rise up in revolt. The Aspie is proactive in their interests, I think (at least I am) with or without food, good times or bad, in equal measure, and even in these plentious times I survive on a diet of caffeine and nicotine.
Like Hitler, his political bed-buddy Lenin (two peas in a pod, despite the left/right deceptions of Socialism), fully grasped this same truth about human stupidity, figured out like a fine science of propaganda. I viewed the documentary "Russian Revolution in Color" DVD from amazon, which showed the repressive Bolshevik regime in its true light... the mass-executions and tyrannical oppression. The soldiers at Kronstadt wished to take a stand against the Bolshevik terror/the Red Army, but all Lenin need do to change the course of history, was increase the rations of bread, enough to quell the hunger (just a little), and the people would no longer fight. They had became complacent. Between WWI which costs millions of lives, the Socialist Revolution, the Bolshevik Revolution (which forced itself on the Russian people through force and terror), and then the Russian Civil War, the people had simply grown weary... a little bread was enough to sell their soul to the devil.. and so it remained for a century. Famine, Oppression, Warfare... give them food, and they are content... the world can burn down around them, and they will not notice, or care.
In the Southern U.S., there's plenty of hog jowls, biscuits and butterbeans which possibly explains the ignorance. For starters, they sure don't like science in these parts. Most of my acquaintances, (I will not go so far as to say friends), but people I enjoy sharing conversation with, are online, in other parts of the country and world, and are involved in fields of science. I have no close friends in the local area.
This is the area of the United States called the "Bible Belt" and ignorance seems to be preferred over enlightment or truth. Judging by my experience over the past decades in my own search for spiritual truth, it is not the fault of the Bible. Most (if not all) of the fundamentalists I've acquainted, don't actually read their Bibles. They subscribe to organized religions and the dogma of religious rhetoric. If I talk too much about theology, I will be accused of demon possession. This is not a lie, and I have read one national news story about a young man who was autistic and well, let the news speak for itself. I neither believe in demons or satan, and with good cause, due to knowledge I gained from studying theology.

Medical examiner: Autistic boy suffocated during exorcism.
By Lisa Sweetingham
MILWAUKEE (Court TV) — The forensic pathologist who autopsied an 8-year-old autistic child hours after he was killed during an exorcism, told jurors Wednesday the boy died from intense pressure on his chest — not from medication he was on.
Cottrell, like most autistic children, hated to be touched and was often unable to express his needs. His mother and two female parishioners helped restrain him on the floor of the strip-mall based Faith Temple of the Apostolic Faith Church, where Hemphill administered the boy's 12th such "prayer service."
Hemphill told investigators he had no formal theological training and had received his calling from God. He also said that his brother, the reverend of the independent church, had ordained him.
http://news.findlaw.com/court_tv/s/2004 ... 75303.html

The Devil Within – Exorcism in the United States
In 2004, Ray Hemphill, minister at the Faith Temple Church of Apostolic Faith in Milwaukee, suffocated eight-year-old Terrance Cottrell Jr. during an exorcism. Terrance Cottrell Jr. suffered from autism and his mother volunteered him during a prayer circle meeting. Ray Hemphill sat on the young boy’s chest, restricting his lungs and killing him.
While this was not a Catholic ceremony, it is important to remember that according to the Catholic belief, anyone can conduct an exorcism. Hemphill’s attorney, Tim Provis, stated in court that Hemphill was doing what he thought best for Cottrell, and that the boy’s death was “an honest error.” It seems that acting for the good of a person doesn’t always go well after all."
http://skepticreport.com/sr/?p=290

In 2000, when I converted to Christianity and Aspergered over how to gain knowledge about the history of the Bible, theological studies, increasing in knowledge... the local pastor told me to contact Christian Book Distributors, (wholesale distributors for scholars studies) but he warned me with great caution, it would not pay to discuss too loudly, KNOWLEDGE around the people in the church, for it wouldn't be taken to kindly. In English, that translated to: THEY LOVE IGNORANCE and HATE KNOWLEDGE. And good to his word, some began accusing me of demon-possession (ah, too many questions, too much knowledge) and just a few months later, he was himself fired. As you might guess, I DROPPED OUT of church. It was a Southern Baptist church.
Though, in 2010, after realizing we're a family of Aspergers, and *need* to socialize, I recently joined a METHODIST Church after being absent from church for about a decade. I hope the experience with the Methodists will be better than those I had in the Baptist denomination.

I have nothing of real mutual interest to discuss with people here in the Bible Belt anyway ... and vis versa. Nope... nobody knocking on my door wanting to visit. I wonder why?

Perhaps I'm being facetious... NOT.
Really, human stupidity, annoys me.

Hello luvmybaby, welcome, enjoy your stay on the Wrong Planet!