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Hello, I finally decided to get registered last night. I've been lurking this community for quite a while and couldn't help but identify with many of the posts I've been reading in the general autism section. I highly suspect myself to have Aspergers or at least some traits of it after discovering this place and doing some research on the Internet.

It all started when a psychologist my parents took me to some years ago suggested to them after making some observations that I might have some traits of Aspergers, which she referenced as "high-functioning autism". We weren't able to get deeper into the matter because she wanted to medicate me, to which my dad totally refused. She also wanted to force me into joining some kind of social group, to which I totally refused and caused me to have a meltdown and cry.

On that note, I've been recently attending a speech therapy since my talking habits are next to zero and what I do manage to speak up is only able to come out as stuttering. Sadly, I wasn't able to make some kind of progress (in fact, I think I got even worse), so my parents started convincing me to quit it. I, being a hopeful little idiot, still wanted to keep trying. Everything changed last week, when my speech therapist decided to have a little conversation with my mom in which she decided to go and spill the beans about my isolated and almost mute condition at school. The therapist got upset and blatantly threatened me by telling me that if I didn't show up today with my hair wrapped up in a ponytail or something like that since, according to her, my hair's all over my face like that of the girl from The Ring movies even though the only thing my hair covers up are my ears (Note: I always have my hair in a loose style and refuse to have it in any other way) and if I didn't start talking and being more social, she wouldn't accept me in that therapy anymore. I tried containing myself from having a meltdown until reaching my mom's car and silently cried all the way home.

After calming down, I told my mom why I cried in the car and asked her what she told that hag. She said she mentioned to her the possibility of me having Aspergers but the therapist told her that if she wanted to get me that diagnosis it would cost 6,000 pesos (I live in Mexico, btw), which is something around 600 dollars and that it would take about two months in order to figure it out. With such an unaffordable price and inadequate treatment, I finally decided to just stop and abandon it.

Also, here are some things about me I believe have something to do with aspergers:
- I don't care about having friends or getting a relationship.
- I don't care about grooming, so I don't use makeup nor fix up my hair.
- I have limited interests that mainly revolve around anime, video games and animals (and even in those topics I have really limited interests).
- I get really well with animals and would take their company over that of other people any day.
- People often tell me I look young for my age (I believe this may be caused by my unwomanish appearance).
- I feel rather uncomfortable at social gatherings (the ones I'm forced to attend to).
- I talk to myself at home (even if my family can hear me ).
- I sometimes have difficulty trying to fall asleep due to my head being full of thoughts.
- I can't stand really girly stuff, to the point of feeling nauseous.
- I don't go out unless it's obligatory or it's related to my interests.
- I space out really often and get absorbed in my thoughts.
- I forget to do things for getting absorbed in my thoughts.
- I have strong sensory issues related mostly to sound and touch.
- I've developed a phobia to balloons due to my loud noises issue and automatically run for my life whenever I spot one (Birthday parties were such a hell for me during my childhood ).
- I can't eat sandwiches due to how disgusting the combination of bread, ham and cheese feels when chewing it and mixing it with saliva (I believe this has something to do with food texture issues).
- On that note, there are certain dishes I can't eat at morning without feeling nauseous.
- I have difficulty making eye contact for extended periods of time.
- I love routine.
- I can't stand it when people arrive later than the hour they stated previously.
- I can't stand and get distracted easily by background noises when watching something of my interest.
- I can't stand repeating noises or movements (ex. my dog barking constantly or my brother moving his leg sideways repeatedly).
- I dress comfortably in the same manner everyday (blouse, pants and ground-level footwear).
- I just can't understand and hate fashion.
- When speaking in public, my voice tends to come out in a quite and monotone manner.
- I tend to develop attachments to objects.
- I get upset if I can't sit in my favorite seat (Not as bad as it used to be in the past).
- I hate using the phone (hence the reason I don't have a cellphone, or want one for that matter).
- I'm a perfectionist and tend to finish any work at a slower rate than other people.
- I tend to pace around when getting thougthful.

I know there are more but those are the only ones I can think of at this moment. All in all, I decided to join in after getting to know this place and getting the feeling I would be able to fit better in here than in the world outside my window and, just hoping to have a good time and hopefully being able to connect with someone my own species.

Welcome to WP

I can relate to a lot of these things.

Welcome to WrongPlanet, and welcome to my time warp.

hello, it's very nice to meet a new member.

i'm sorry to hear about the situation regarding diagnosis and the therapist and hope your situation improves, however unfortunately i am unable to give any advice about that situation.

Welcome to Wrong Planet!!

Hello sohmasheep, welcome, enjoy your stay on the Wrong Planet!

To WrongPlanet!! !

Greetings, and welcome to the Wrong Planet, sohmasheep.