undecided wrote:
It's definitely a hard issue to deal with as it makes me doubt my entire life up until now, as if it was a big joke on me.
Welcome to the wrong planet. Err, Sorry, to WrongPlanet!
If you're into philosophy, then the possibility of life being a big joke on us all may have arisen already.
But at core, realising that AS may provide a better map for your understanding of yourself and the rest of the world does not change you. You are what you have always been.
That the new understanding may shift strategies, or objectives, that's quite possible.