40 year old latebloomer

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It's my turn to do the "Hi, I'm new" thread. My name is Scott.

My mom and I agree I've been different all my life, but we never had words for it. I understand what it is meant by "environmental insult", and, with each major milestone, my symptoms have gotten worse. At first I was blissfully unaware, then I was aware but sheltered, but I continued to get worse. I struggled through and then failed my 4 years of college. I took on extremely hard and stressful jobs that frankly were beyond me. Finally I got fired for absenteeism. No job meant filing for Chapter 7 bankruptcy (I had accrued several thousand dollars of credit card debt.) My comorbid psychiatric conditions allowed me to be on SSDI. I *did* finally pay off my student loans, probably the only financial success of my life.

In September I had the big milestone 40th birthday. My therapist and I began wondering about an Asperger's DX. I began an intense period of research and study.

In March I was at my lowest point. A combination of problems had me hospitalized for severe suicidal ideation (I had a loaded gun). Now I have hospital bills.

I continue to mess up my monthly finances. I'm trying to pay off my debt so I can then save money for a formal evaluation.

I am extremely depressed. Some days I hide in my room. I'm 40 years old and only now am I starting to piece information together to have some idea of the cause of my life problems. In all of my life, *no one* has been qualified to help me.

So, that's who I am....the 40 year old late bloomer. Hopefully I will continue to learn (from hanging out at WP!) Get someone qualified to evaluate me and point me in a better direction.

And, hopefully I am not the only one out there that feels like this.

*hug*

Thanks for the *hug*.

Oh, look! I am no longer an emu egg. I am now a humming bird! Moving up in the world.

Welcome to WP!

No you're not the only one, Im a 40 something late bloomer as well...I guess you could say im a yo yo bloomer, lots of blooming and lots of withering, but everything happens in seasons and the hardest season never lasts forever even if it feels like it is. I hope you find some direction

Hi hutchscott and OzAspie

This is a good new thread to have.

Hello and welcome to you both - I am over 40 too and got my dx last year - I am still waiting to see the AS specialist (7th July), but are content and comfortable enough with what my doctor and local hospital have said so far. Nothing to be ashamed of etc.

Welcome greetings to the Wrong Planet community, Scott.

Welcome to WrongPlanet, from WPs Kinks Fan.

Hello Scott, welcome, enjoy your stay on the Wrong Planet!