30 Jun 2010, 7:00 am
Hi there! I'm Kristy.
I got diagnosed with aspergers at 13, I am now 19.
I'm sure like a lot of you are, are embarrased or ashamed of being on the spectrum. I am, this is the first time I've tried to reach out to people like me.
when I first got diagnosed I was a wreck--didn't have many friends, would get excited or tempermental at 'petty' things. (Ie. Showers, movies I didn't like the ending of, someone finishing off 'my' food, doing my hair, or a change in routine.)
I was with a psychiatrist once a month for half a year, (extremely small town, and not enough funds for more sessions) and was introduced to extremely large doses of medication for bipolar and depression. A lot of the names of these pills are a blur, but I do remember taking almost three lamictal a day.
By age 14, I could no longer see my hour/month psychiatrist due to a divorce.
By that time I was mature enough to listen to the complaints of my peers. My clothes weren't trendy enough, my glasses weren't cool enough, splotchy skin, oily uneven mop of hair, unnatractive figure and hairy legs.
So with time, I fixed these things. Looking back, these things are very superficial but fitting in was my goal, and I damn well wanted to achieve it!
I painstakingly forced my self to bathe every other day (candy scented shampoos and conditioners really helped!) And I leaned how to straighten and keep my hair healthy. Even though I was scared s**tless of being trapped in a chair with someone with scissors near my scalp I endured it. Remembering that layers are worth it.
I switched from unflattering sports bras to wire bras. Helped lift the girls up, and making me seem slimmer. I ate a lot less "comfort food" and with a less than healthy weight loss regimen I went from a size 150-160lbs to a "pocket sized" 117-120lbs.
By 15 I was being asked to parties and on the arm of a boyfriend until I graduated.
The thing that helped me was peer pressure.
Sometimes its better to just give into it.
Yeah, I had to be fake and remind myself that what I was doing was so "ass-pie" and force myself to quit the behavior.
But its been tough being "fake" and sometimes I just want to fall into "bad habits"
So there you go. You now know me more than most people I know irl. 
Hope to get to know you guys, and if you have any questions be sure to askkk.
CockneyRebel
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30 Jun 2010, 7:02 am
Welcome to WrongPlanet.
30 Jun 2010, 7:04 am
Thank you, copy-and-paster!
30 Jun 2010, 9:49 am
30 Jun 2010, 1:00 pm
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30 Jun 2010, 1:17 pm
Welcome to WP
30 Jun 2010, 1:50 pm
So with time, I fixed these things. Looking back, these things are very superficial but fitting in was my goal, and I damn well wanted to achieve it!
I painstakingly forced my self to bathe every other day (candy scented shampoos and conditioners really helped!) And I leaned how to straighten and keep my hair healthy.
The thing that helped me was peer pressure.
Sometimes its better to just give into it.
Yeah, I had to be fake and remind myself that what I was doing was so "ass-pie" and force myself to quit the behavior.
Uhm...those behaviors are not 'Aspie' behaviors. You won't find them anywhere in the diagnostic manual.
I'm glad to hear you took responsibility for yourself and gained self-respect from it. That's always a good thing. Welcome!
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30 Jun 2010, 3:24 pm
To WrongPlanet!! !
